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Take Me Back

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Take me back, back to the times when I didn't know what heartbreaks were.. The times when my heart only cried when I heard a loved our was ailing or in hospital... Take me a couple of years back when my heart only skipped beats and that that was that..
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Take me back, to the days I actually did pray, and had a long list of prayer items.. Nowadays its just " tomorrow be kind on humanity "... And that's literally it and I say ' amen '..... Just take me back to those days when I was naive, back to those days when grandma would tell me to pray for rain ( and it would rain cause it was rainy season) and I'd be happy but not say a thing about it..
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Take me back to those days, when the only nightmares that kept me awake was that big tarantula on the side of the wall... When mama read me stories and I wouldn't sleep until she was done reading.... Just take me back cause the nightmares have been having be realer that reality.........
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Take me back to the time when I didn't know pain... The time the only pain I knew was when mama was mad a me for something I did or didn't do... Or when my neighbors just decided to come fight me because I didn't know how to throw punches....... Lately pain is just stuck on me like a last time, just can't shake it off even if I went to court..
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. Take me back to when nothing made sense,.. Take me back to the time I was happy.... To the time I was whole... To the time when I'd close my eyes and all I could see was good memories.... The time when my biggest fear was being chased by mama hen and not thinking of who won't be in my life tommorow ....
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Take me back to when faking a smile wasn't a thing for me...

© 2020 Amani Utembu

Comments

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on August 23, 2020:

Amani,

I pray you can find a way back without the pain.

Picture a good day. Keep other thoughts out of your mind...only happy ones.

It's okay to fake a smile because the real ones are just around the corner.

You will see.