Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.
As the year draws to a close, been through a lot of stuff
Good, bad and totally different than anything from before
Feeling as if I've fought a long, turbulent battle for survival
Melodramatic a tad bit though it was true in a way
Love and heartbreak two extreme emotions that take a lot
Turned someone who had a laissez-faire attitude
Into someone actively planning for a non-existent future
A house of cards that disappeared with one gust of wind
Still a little bitter over being reduced to a passing fancy
Instead of someone who meant more than a fling
That went on longer than it should have
Could've had a friendlier conclusion without slamming the book shut
Before throwing it in the fireplace to turn it into complete ashes
Contents transformed into the dusty aftermath of nothing
Sweeping away 27 months as if it was just a figment of the imagination
New Year's goal was to find a new approach over what comes next
Been angry, sad and just plain cynical over everything for too long
As if I was the criminal who violated some unwritten rule
When I really didn't do anything wrong at all
Made no demands on their time or took any real advantage
Didn't use or abuse them for cruel and unusual purposes
Was the cool girlfriend who watched cartoons with them
Preferred to have watch things with a higher IQ level though
Understood that sometimes people need a touch of silly youth
To break from the monotony of being a tried and true adult
Also became aware that it was a way to escape from responsibility
Avoiding the opportunity to grow up and make some clear decisions
Putting nails in the road to flatten their tires to prevent going further
Might not have intended to do so, but they sabotaged their own life
Chose to be irresponsible to ruin a steady form of income
One reckless moment caused a major black mark on their license
Caused them to be blacklisted professionally from future companies
Forced to live on unemployment checks and under the table paint jobs
Seemed like they had a clear plan when it was just an illusion
To calm your suspicious nature of their motives for the future
Became obvious that they weren't as reliable as they appeared to be
A strong shoulder to a cuddle with and cry on when it was needed
Unwilling for me to return the favor for them; not sure if they wanted that
Once felt bad for the predicament they got themselves in
Aware now that it is not my problem what happened to them
They made their bed; and now they have to lie in it alone
Like they deserve to be; the end to this story.
The aftermath of a long and winding journey.
Comments
BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on December 29, 2019:
Heather,
It seems so unfair when one is hurt by others when he did nothing wrong to deserve it.
I feel this pain.
And yes, it is his bed to lie in not yours.
Still doesn't make it easier. I still think life is short so we need to make it what we want and not worry about what others think of our choices.
But getting hurt makes your attitude bitter.
Great write.
