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Persistent Illness

Author:

Uaral Depression

persistent-illness

No More Resistance

Compassion has faded away, traumatic memories kept well preserved
neglected needs are locked away because the love went unobserved.

Insanity is calling, convinced there is no peace
accustomed to an illness, that doesn't seem to cease.

Ecstasy felt within my cries
as I watch the time tick clockwise.

Separated by a dividing line, no one to hold me tight
The emptiness inside, has taken all my sight.

Imagine seeing your life's trajectory and knowing where it leads
Is there someone out there who can love and care for my needs?

Constant suffering unobserved, an experience to inarticulate
Bury my head in the sand, because my brain is in a broken state.

Every complaint sends hate through my veins
Your voice makes my head spin and leaves my in chains.

So end me now before I pay for disgust
Restrain me now before they call me unjust.

You can't remove a believe, that's buried in too deep
Too different, too alone, my compromise is eternal sleep.

My dogs head knows where to rest
Safely placed upon my chest

He listens as my lungs collapse
While I stroke his little ear flaps.

Depression sealed you in place, finally letting go
Watching bodies disappear along with everything you know.

Dissociated inside a room of memories far and distant,
tranquillity overcomes mind and soul until your unresistant.




© 2019 Adam Mason

Comments

Adam Mason (author) from Melbourne, Australia on July 07, 2019:

Thanks Mark

Mark Tulin from Ventura, California on July 03, 2019:

The pain of loss so powerful in this poem.

Adam Mason (author) from Melbourne, Australia on July 03, 2019:

Thanks Lorna, really nice to get the feedback :) Next one should be positive haha

Lorna Lamon on July 02, 2019:

This is a powerful poem, cleverly written and thought provoking.