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Parental Apologies

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Life hasn't ended up the way we want,
Dreams drown deep and nothing there to flaunt,
I wish I was the child who didn't die inside,
Because things crashed so I try to run and hide,
Traces of my soul are scattered into pieces,
A blank image of humanity I don't really need this,
Father forgive me for everything I have done,
Mother I love you even though I'm not the son,
That you tried to mold into your perfect thought,
But i have my own life and for that I had sought,
Happiness even though in my head it's only rain,
A broken child from a broken home with only pain,
What else should I say? I did the best with what i had,
Im surprised I got this far when most days are always sad,
Dad, I didn't mean to disappoint you as I am a failure,
Mom, even though we fight I love you and you love me I am sure,
Days turn to weeks turns to years,
So little time but so much to fear,
Death is always near but always out of sight,
I have to fight it though with all of my might,
Not death but the constant battle within us all,
I have to pick myself up even though I have to fall,
I stand so tall even though I don't want to at all,
I don't know what to do,
Im lost inside all that is new,
Im not fully there my brain is missing a couple screws,

© 2018 Tommy Hall

Comments

Mark Tulin from Ventura, California on November 19, 2018:

We all look for something to maintain our strength to deal with life’s inequities like religion, yoga, reading, writing. Writing just might be your vehicle to cope with life. Keep writing, brother.