Manatita is an esteemed author living in London, UK. He writes spiritual books, flash fiction and esoteric poetry, his favourite genre.
R.I.P, my Beloved Sister
Ode to Pain, a Eulogy: Merging With Her Light
As a child, I felt and saw her frequently, yet
I did not know who she was. She cried in my
Stomach, gave me ugly hungry faces; charmed
The many doctors, who loved to see my cuteness.
I first saw her on my mother’s face. Although
Mom frequently smiled at me, I would sometimes
Find her weeping in the bedroom, the bright colour
In her face already dissipated, like passing clouds.
Sometimes she sobbed in the garden, like a
Willow; even the light zephyrs couldn’t stem
The flow, of the ‘hanky’ in her hands, like a dim
Candle, reaching out to our Lord in heaven.
She had many burdens, concerns … made
Sacrifices in the face of adversity; showed resilience
And fortitude, and above all, Love! Much later, I became
Aware that we as humans, all shared a unique, but similar struggle.
The last time I saw pain, was on my sister’s face,
As my soul flew nearly 5,000 miles to Houston.
Stained black, sunken, emaciated from the many ascitic
Drainage, as the nasal prongs, tried to enhance her breath of life.
What a remarkable and loving soul, she was!! Full
Of vivacity, exuberance, selflessness and magnanimity,
Almost unto the end. I extolled her virtues … her dauntless
Courage; her generosity of spirit; I consoled her with tenderness,
Solace, softness … my knowledge, of the immortality of the soul.
She could not speak then, but looked peaceful enough,
As the oxygen tubing from her nostrils … of God’s blessings,
Ensured that she would see out the end of her 56th birthday.
I felt pain in my Heart, which flew straight to Paradise, as she
Gave me an affirmative elbow, even while transitioning from
This life. My tears become bright candles, merging with her Light.
- Manatita, The Lantern Carrier. 10th April, 2021