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The PPE I Never Got - A Silent Cry!

The author, a doctor by profession, reflects her own frustrations related to the Covid-19 pandemic.

Dedicated to the Health Care Professionals, all around the world, facing the crisis of COVID-19 pandemic like brave warriors!

— Farah N Huq

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Background

There is a world wide shortage of Personal Protective Equipment (PPE) for doctors and other healthcare workers treating the Covid patients right now. This created a fear and outrage within the health care community as this posed for them a formidable risk of contracting the disease. An alarming number of healthcare workers had to lose their lives during this 2020 pandemic and it is assumed that the number would rise further as the virus spreads it's deadly shadow throughout the world. The poem depicts the story of one such unsung hero who nearly lost his life fighting the battle due to lack of proper protective gear.

Update: When I wrote this, I was hopeful. I was hopeful that things will end without a sad ending. But unfortunately things are taking a bad turn. We have already lost two doctors while many more are affected.

Update: 10.6.20. The tragedy that started with Dr. Moyeen's death has now reached 29! Yes 29 of our finest doctors have lost their lives in this battle and over 1000 doctors alone have been infected in my country. It's hard to find a place in the hospital now.

Congratulations Newzealand for successfully managing the crisis. Well done!

Update: 2nd July 2020. The number of doctors who have died due to COVID 19 has reached 69 today. All gone too soon!

We Mourn!

In the loving memories of Dr. Moyeen Uddin, the bravest soul we lost in this fight! (15.04.20). Please pray for the departed soul!

In the loving memories of Dr. Moyeen Uddin, the bravest soul we lost in this fight! (15.04.20). Please pray for the departed soul!

From the facebook wall of Dr. Moyeen. A kind and brave soul lost too early! May his soul rest in eternal peace!

From the facebook wall of Dr. Moyeen. A kind and brave soul lost too early! May his soul rest in eternal peace!

Doctors in USA protesting for PPE

Doctors in USA protesting for PPE

The PPE I Never Got!

Hospitals are on red alert
and every city is under a lock,
Distressed patients are being rushed to the ER
In large masses and in flocks.

I heard a nurse cry out for help,
One of the Covid patients needed a DC shock!
Helpless! I did feel out there.
As there were no PPE in our stock!

Standing there I took a second to figure,
Should I go near or should I flee?
My mind had only a moment to configure,
What's more important?
The Covid patient, my family or me?

Closing my eyes, I thought of the oath
I had taken,
"The health and well-being of my patient will be my first consideration",
But it also had a line I totally ignored,
"I will attend to my own health and well-being",
Something we, now, have forsaken.

In between the two lines stood my decision,
And I decided to attend to my duty in front of me,
And I held on to my oath as a physician.
I treated my patient to the best of my ability.

But I had to pay a high price for my oath,
As now, I am myself lying in a patient's bed,
Wondering, who I should hold responsible for my condition,
Worried! Who will take care of my family after my death?

Didn't the state owe us our protection,
Before sending us to the battlefield?
Doesn't the oath need some correction?
To hold the state responsible for our lives, we plead!

I suffered, I cried, I prayed in distress,
I felt my life meant nothing to the rest,
For if they had known my real worth,
They would have certainly tried to protect us to their best.

I nearly lost my life in that battle,
But was happy that I got victory!
A gallant warrior I envisioned myself,
both as a doctor and a patient,
But it seemed for this world my life was for free!

After I fought for my life in the ICU bed,
I could not help but regret.
"Between my oath and my life,
What is more valuable?" I questioned.
All I had sought was my life's protection!
For no one got to know about the death I fought,
And all for the PPE I never got!

Farah N Huq
12.04.20

Doctors in Pakistan arrested for their protest to get access to Personal Protective Equipment (PPE)

Doctors in Pakistan arrested for their protest to get access to Personal Protective Equipment (PPE)

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© 2020 Farah N Huq

Comments

Farah N Huq (author) from Dhaka, Bangladesh on April 21, 2020:

Thank you, Kyler. The number of doctors infected is now over 160 today. 1 died in the hospital. 2 more died at home (not even counted in the official number). So....just trying to be hopeful. Glad you liked it. Stay safe, Kyler.

Kyler J Falk from Corona, CA on April 20, 2020:

Truly a rough situation, but a necessary and endearing piece you have created around it, Farah.

Stay safe, and all the best to you and your family!

Farah N Huq (author) from Dhaka, Bangladesh on April 14, 2020:

Thank you so much, Shivangi, for your soothing words! A little appreciation is all we seek. Please stay safe and stay blessed. Keep us in your prayers too. Much love!

Shivangi Rani on April 14, 2020:

We are all so thankful to you ma'am.. We feel so blessed in all your presence.. for you all are staking your lives for the life of your patients.. The calamity has really put us in a great distress.. & here we have some unsung warriors like you.. who are diligently carrying out the responsibilities without fail.. We all hold so much of respect for you.. Thank you again to have shared your experience...

Farah N Huq (author) from Dhaka, Bangladesh on April 13, 2020:

Thank you so much, Lorna, for your kind words. Please stay safe as well.

Lorna Lamon on April 13, 2020:

My heart goes out to you Farah. I have relatives and friends who work in the health service and are under immense stress. You must be exhausted working back to back shifts. The situation in Pakistan is made even more difficult by the fact that if people don't work they will not be able to feed their families. Those countries who can help must help other countries who are not able to help themselves. The sheer number of people make this situation so difficult.

I pray that you will stay safe Farah and please know that I am thinking of you. Stay in touch my friend.

Farah N Huq (author) from Dhaka, Bangladesh on April 13, 2020:

Dear Lorna, it's good to hear from you once again. Yes, it is a very sad and helpless situation indeed. Bangladesh is a very densely populated country and we don't honestly have the support to back us up like the bigger countries. If things go out of hand, we are estimating huge loss of lives. So we are primarily focusing on preventing the spread. But it was really hard to make people understand how grave the situation is initially. But we are still hopeful with whatever we have got. Doctors, nurses and everyone involved in the health care team are working day and night to keep this under a check. Yet, sadly, not everyone here is appreciative of our work. So, it's a tough situation. I had to do atleast two 24hr shifts with suspected patients without PPE. even surgical masks had to be rationed. Got saved by Almighty, both the times- the patients tested negative. Got PPE this Friday after literally putting up a fight. It's sad when you have to fight for issues such as these when all you should be concentrating on is managing the disease. Please do pray for us. It's much needed in this crisis.

Lorna Lamon on April 13, 2020:

Your poem highlights the tragedy of this situation which sadly is being played out throughout the world. Some Dr's and Nurses in the UK are now considering not treating patients with Covid-19 unless they have the proper protection. They are already putting their lives on the line by treating these patients, the least government's can do is protect them. A heart wrenching poem Farah. Keep safe and well.

Farah N Huq (author) from Dhaka, Bangladesh on April 12, 2020:

Thank you, Dr. Mubina Ahmed, for your encouraging words. Glad you liked it! Much love!

Dr Mubina Ahmed on April 12, 2020:

Really amazing Dr Farah.... awesome...