One Million Tears

Updated on October 12, 2018
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Poppy is a writer and proofreader living in Japan with her husband. She likes to write about her hobbies and experiences.

We were two excited parents-to-be
On that day, October 9th.
We had no idea that it would be
The worst day of our lives.

The doctor's voice was serious,
As I lay there in the seat.
Then my heart was cleaved in two
When he said there was no heartbeat.

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“There must be a mistake,” I thought,
“We’ll find it in a moment.”
But I saw you there in black and white,
And all remaining hope was broken.

“It’s not your fault,” were his kind words,
That fell on muffled ears.
As they looked on in sympathy,
I couldn’t stop the tears.

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They gave to us your photograph,
We keep it safe at home.
It is the only one of you
That we will ever own.

I’m sorry I’ll never see you grow
Watch you sing or laugh or dance,
I’m sorry Mummy couldn’t protect you
From the cruelties of chance.

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As I watch the sky, it‘s so unfair,
That you’ll never play or run,
Or enjoy my loving kisses,
Feel the warmth of the sun.

It’s silly, but I imagine you up there
With a tiny hand you're waving,
“It’s all right, Mummy,” you say to me,
“In the next world, I am waiting.”

Goodbye, my gorgeous darling.
We’ll meet one day, maybe.
Never will your parents forget,
The fleeting joy of our first baby.

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    © 2018 Poppy

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    • poppyr profile imageAUTHOR

      Poppy 

      2 days ago from Tokyo, Japan

      I’m sorry for your loss. It must have been awful.

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      Liz Westwood 

      2 days ago from UK

      Our grandson was one of the 1 in 200 stillbirths. He was lost at 41.5 weeks just when I thought they were in the safest place, on labour suite. Sadly it appears that his loss was avoidable, which makes it harder. The miscarriage rate is shockingly high.

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      Poppy 

      2 days ago from Tokyo, Japan

      It's more common than people know. I didn't realise a huge 25% of pregnancies end in miscarriage. The information doesn't make it any easier to cope with, of course.

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      Liz Westwood 

      2 days ago from UK

      Our circumstances sound similar. We had to watch our daughter and son-in-law go through the agony. Heartbreaking. All the excitement and anticipation cruelly crushed in a few words.

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      Poppy 

      2 days ago from Tokyo, Japan

      It's always heartbreaking to lose a child, no matter what age. thank you for sharing your thoughts.

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      Liz Westwood 

      4 days ago from UK

      This is such a moving and heartfelt poem. It is just over 2 years ago since we lost our first grandson. Your poem brings back all those memories, which in truth are never far away.

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      Poppy 

      7 days ago from Tokyo, Japan

      Thank you so much for your comment, Louise. It means a lot.

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      Louise Powles 

      8 days ago from Norfolk, England

      That's a very powerful and thought-provoking poem. Very touching. Thankyou for sharing.

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