Once Upon A Time I Was Lonely

Updated on December 22, 2018

So once upon a time I was lonely

And I let you manipulate & control me

I also manipulated you

And there were stipulations true

Everything was so brand new

An adoration like nothing I ever knew

So having sex turned into making love

Instead of walking the earth, I was floating up above

So you put me in a position to have me believing

But the way you led me on was so deceiving

I was gullible & vulnerable

But I was at fault because I made it all tolerable

The surprise is gone, no more last parades

The disguise is gone, no more masquerades

I wasn't ready for the downfall

And I fell hard & it wasn't the grounds fault

So now I'm the only one left here to pick up the pieces

No more late night encounters or intimate releases

I just have a head filled with thoughts of what was meant to be

But now there's No more soulmates, you can no longer vent to me

Part of the heartfelt goodness was found in the way I charmed her

But her love grew cold to me so mine had no choice but to grow warmer

Warm like rays of sun peeking through a window

It's amazing how one can feel so connected to a person no matter how long it's been though

So lately I've been thinking of you more often than not

But I have to decipher what's reality, what's fantasy, & what's simply a thought

So now it's morning @ 6:15

On a cold Christmas Eve

I think about your body language & your piercing turquoise eyes

Your beautiful soul & for me how it softly cries

I'm wondering if you're thinking of me at this very moment

Thinking of a love that's fallen through the cracks but was once so potent

A love that even history couldn't begin to explain

A love that surpasses All anger & pain

A love so bold, yet oh so real

A love that you can't explain by what you say, it's just one that you feel

So this love I’ve set to a high standard, more so than the highest peak

That kept me attentive like the most pious speech

But it was nothing but broken promises & empty words

But I felt better before the manipulation & now I just feel worse

So now I'm looking for a woman like Destiny’s Child to “Cater to Me”

That makes “Promises” like Ciara, or that will be my “Diary” like Alicia Keys

It's time for me to close my eyes, take a deep sigh

And to soldier on with my life.


© 2018 Eric Golden

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