Nowhere
Nowhere has died
The occupants died of starvation
The dogs was sent to the vet and euthanized
Our tree house was set on fire
No one survived
The moon that hung so perfectly over us fell
No light has touched the world we created
I can’t go back
Only two people have entered this world
A world that stood for my soul
For my hopes and dreams
Everything I could possibly want in my life
It was in Nowhere
You built the door to my dreams
It was our world
A world forged with what I thought was love
It was built with devoted friendship
A friendship like iron chains
So strongly linked we never thought about breaking
My acid heart caused me to rust
You still held strong and helped me wipe the salty tears off my edges
They rolled off my hollow cheeks as you held me
Your touch was invisible to anyone watching
The stupid smile you cut into my face hurt
Yet I lived for your kiss
For your hug
Even though I screamed and bled as your heart broke
I should’ve seen it
I shouldn’t have reacted so badly
You yourself never forced blood from your flesh
But I did
It caused your heart to break
All because my blade slipped from my hands and dug into your love for me
I never had loved anyone more than I had you
I overreacted
I’m bad
My veins pump acid
Each living moment was a vicious battle for air
Then you touched me
Your smile was that light
It made the demons and acid burn up
Your hand fit perfectly in mine as you pulled me towards you
I forgot the black hole existed when I was in your arms
Bliss couldn’t even describe it
I let it get to me
I let the blade stab us until we both lay on the cold ground dizzy
If you loved me you wouldn’t have let it get to you
But you didn’t love me
You never did
I was just a charity case
No
No that is not how it works
Just like you many others fell into my pain
They called it love as if it could be defined in any book
As if it was something that doesn’t die
As if they weren’t lying to me
I kill love
I bat my eyelashes like a innocent lost girl
And people fall in
They fall from thousands of miles away to just a few blocks down
We both fall together
Eventually the ground will rush up
Neither knows who will hit it first
Who will shatter into more pieces then there are happy moments we shared in each others arms
This is how it ends
In lies
I am not innocent
If you dare to look me in eyes
Look with your eyes half closed
I was never the one to deceive
But my head pulls tricks that not even I know how to stop
I never meant for this to happen
Nowhere is best left dead
I don’t have the courage to go back
© 2019 Austin Koeckeritz
