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Not Easy Being Me

Samuel Malik Canty: the Word Bird. I am the author of Five Poetry Books, I understand my Purpose, and my words are my proof...

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It's not easy being me...

Not easy pretending that all is well while you feel like hell...

Not easy keeping emotions on lock down...

Not easy living in the past when the future is screaming to meet you...

Not easy walking around in a daze pretending that you are okay when the tensions is mounting…

Not easy sitting and waiting for God to answer your prayers...

Not easy holding on to dead emotions and relationships that don't promote growth...

Not easy being me…

Not easy feeling like a caged bird whose wings are clipped and soaring is no longer desired…

Not easy to find it in your heart, to forgive past confusion and mistakes from what the eyes have seen and history has recorded…

Not easy staying in a household where love is only activated by money, power, and thoughts like, “What have you done for me lately”?

Not easy to smile when your world is spinning out of spiral and no one seems to care...

Not easy watching wicked ideas and ideologies of a time long ago still trying to revived itself, still lying to itself about superiority and the alleged God-Given-Rights-To-Rule.

Not easy hearing the sobs of parents over the unnecessary death of a loved ones, who did nothing wrong to lead to their demise.

Not easy trying to do right by everyone you encounter without fear and suspicion making their present felt.

Not easy watching a continue assault against decency, fair play and equality for everyone under the Sun.

Not easy being me, who sees, who feels, and knows the difference between what is wrong and what is right…

Comments

Malik S Canty (author) from Brooklyn, NY on October 25, 2019:

Thank you for your thoughts...

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on October 25, 2019:

I love your style.

This one touches the heart..it is not easy being me.

No one truly understands what one is going through or they just don't care.

It is not easy pretending..holding back tears when you want to breakdown but stay strong. You show no emotion in front of others as you try to keep on going.

Great write.