Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.
Finding peace after a long arduous war of emotional turmoil
Brutal to have your heart broken and obsess over failings
Of what came from your end and theirs as well
Realized that no one was a saint in this twisted equation
Decided to come to terms with the past in your own way
Much to the chagrin of many close consiglieres
Disagreeing with the notion of adult transparency
Slamming the door shut and no longer dealing with it
Some found that effective; while others believed in not doing that
Preferring to keep things locked away and turning enemies
Into Lord Voldemort; or better know as they who should not be named
Hardly aided the recovery process in the slightest
Decided to face the creatures that went bump in the subconscious night
Opening the padded lock front door to keep those demons at bay
Making them drink some disgusting home remedy to cure them
Of what makes them fester for longer than they needed to
Felt impowered to make an adult decision to find proper closure
Not just hermetically sealing a door shut and hiding away
Forced hidden anxieties to dominate existence
No longer want to live a life where emotions can be scrubbed away
Left untreated those wounds festered into something greater
Familiar Counselors disagreed with decisions made
Have to realize that they were mine and mine alone to make
If regrets were to be had, chosen on my terms this time
Had developed a détente with the former warring opponent
Hashed out all the grievances and terms of what occurred before
Felt at peace once the hour plus long conversation was over
Lied briefly to counselors about the secret talks
Deliberated a little more intensely afterwards as to what the future held
Decided to take some of their advice partially
Told the other party that this newfound peace was nice
Still needed some time and distance to work out private matters
Left the door open for future talks on my terms alone
Not sure if and when that will happen
Just felt nice to have some much need resolution
All that can be asked for in such turbulent times
Nothing more, nothing less.
BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on March 26, 2021:
It feels good to have a little glimmer of hope back inside your soul after such a torment.
To act civil again with the possibility of more conversations down the road.
Setting your own terms..not following the likes of others.
Just be careful to not fool yourself ...your heart might want more.
manatita44 from london on March 26, 2021:
You write like a blog, but an impactful and noteworthy blog, nonetheless. Discriptive and current and very meaningful. Shows great potential but also excellent for reflection. Kudos to you!