Jenny is a twenty-something-year-old who loves writing novels, poems and articles about her experiences in life.
My Own Bully
Have you ever felt this way?
Like in this world, you have no say?
Like you are stuck with your own doubt,
You feel so drowned, there's no way out.
I always feel that kind of feeling;
That I'm left out, no chance of flying.
I usually say, I'm not enough.
Somewhere I'll stop and then give up.
I'm nothing compared to others,
They're already there, no one can bother.
I'm so down here, in the darkest hours;
No light to shed, no heat and fire.
Somewhere in the middle of my thoughts,
I keep on hearing all these words.
I'm so not this, I'm so not that;
The thoughts keep running without a stop.
The voice always say I can't go on;
The odds are greater, I'm better alone.
She shouts my name from the deepest part,
It ate my dream and then my heart.
There were so many times I let myself,
I believed and lived through the things she said.
But as long as I listen and obliged;
The longer I'm stucked, and soared no hights.
That's why right now, I try not to;
hear her more, and make it true.
I promised that I'd find a place,
That my own bully won't find my grace.
I'll glue my ears, I'll tie her mouth.
I'll make it stop, I'll scream and shout.
Because now I know I deserve my life.
No one can ruin and stop my flight.
I'll deserve the love and the dreams I sought.
I'll become that someone I'm dreaming of.
My own bully which is myself;
Wouldn't find me now until my death.
- jenny a. p.
Writer's Meaning Behind The Poem
I've always felt like I AM my own bully, which I think is much harder. If someone tells you mean things and that you're bad at doing things, you can just cover your ears and not listen. Yeah. It would still hurt but what if the bully, that voice that keeps on criticizing you negatively, is lying within you? There's no place to hide. Keeping your ears shut would not help. Because it would hunt you even on your dreams. I've been a victim of my own bully these past years. And now I still have that voice, but I am trying to believe that I am more than what I thought I am. That I can be good at doing things. That there is something that I will excel on. That is the only way that that voice would muffle even just a bit.
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