As the minor irritations of the world come to the forefront of my mind
I find myself continually chasing what I once thought was sublime
Was It really that great or just an illusion?
Temporary entertainment, only to cause confusion
My head is going one way, heart going another, with my lower nature out of control
Why am I uncomfortable im my singleness, in my own skin? To love myself is what I was told
I'm broken all the time but I'm trying my best to mend
It never feels like it's enough so then I start to pretend
I pretend that I'm happy, content, fulfilled, & satisfied
But you can't tell that behind my eyes 1,000 tears i have already cried
They say be strong but what happens when you're weak all the time?
What happens when you can't get to the peaks & stay in the valley where the sun don't shine?
No one seems to understand the struggle I go through on a daily basis
How im going to pay my bills? What time will I get up? Will I make it on time to places?
Gas tank running on empty, 1,000s of dollars of debt, plates already expired
I'm in a position where I don't to be miserable all the time & Im sick of being tired
I see no relief in sight & I have no goals
I have nothing but pain inside of me, the depression takes its toll
© 2018 Eric Golden