Messages Spoken Through Emotional Heartbreak: A Trio of Poems

Updated on November 3, 2017
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Missy is a unique writer who enjoys inviting her readers into her thoughts through her poetry and other topics of discussion.  

Change is Good

Are you single and in the middle of your life? You may wonder what you did wrong to be so alone? Well, I too have had many thoughts as these, but lately I finally feel a bit of relief. I haven't thought too much about being by myself without a companion. Instead, I find myself wondering if I actually do become lucky enough to find someone compatible with me, would I even like to be in a relationship at this point in my life? Obviously, I have had bad luck relationships, and I definitely would not want those type back, so it's a bit scary to think about trying again. The older I get, the more I move away from the idea of finding love.

However, I do believe it will creep back up on me someday. I will inevitably see a couple that seemingly have had a beautiful life together and wonder if I'm missing something; something that I never experienced before? Asking myself if I'm giving up on love too early? Could there actually be a Romeo for me?

These poems I wrote are not feelings I have had of late. They are emotions that I have felt from my past. The part of me that tried to make a life with another, and never quite could get it to work. I have no excuse why it didn't. I feel just boredom maybe? And in that way, I grew to feel that I wasn't truly loved. Of course, I felt the sting of the abandonment. I was always the one to be left, and yes; I thought I was in love, but in time, I always felt a sense of relief that it ended. I unfailingly always come to understand I tried too hard, and since I tried so unyielding, it wasn't making me happy, and in that way, it was not really a loving relationship for me. In a weird way, I was thankful to my exes for leaving. I'm not sure I would have ever given up, but just because I was living within a delusional state.

These poems, are once again, ways I have felt, and hopefully will never feel again. I don't want anymore of this type of despair and anguish at this point in my life. As you can tell, that kind of feeling sticks with you, it never leaves. So, I've decided to write these things out as I always do. This time, I was extremely happy as I wrote these poems, because I certainly remember how these types of emotions made me feel, and to be able to write a poem with just memories of emotions instead of feeling them; It was a nice change for me. The question now would be; was my creativity still good as I wrote out emotions I do not have right now, or do my poems sound better written as a relatable experience that I'm having at the moment? You may answer that question in the poll I post beside one of my poems. Happy reading!! :)

Source

Klexos; The Art of Dwelling on The Past

Love or Lust? A list from Psychologytoday.com

SIGNS OF LUST

  • You're totally focused on a person's looks and body.
  • You're interested in having sex, but not in having conversations.
  • You'd rather keep the relationship on a fantasy level, not discuss real feelings.
  • You want to leave soon after sex rather than cuddling or breakfast the next morning.
  • You are lovers, but not friends.

SIGNS OF LOVE

  • You want to spend quality time together other than sex.
  • You get lost in conversations and forget about the hours passing.
  • You want to honestly listen to each other's feelings, make each other happy.
  • He or she motivates you to be a better person.
  • You want to get to meet his or her family and friends.

Gone Is His Love

It’s so sad though, I wanted

to love someone unconditional.


Eventually, he didn’t want that

from me, and it was extremely

hard, but I set him free.


If it happens to you, open the

cage of your heart; let them

out, but don’t ever believe

the lies that they may come

back.


Even if they try, it’s not the

same, they are merely desperate

for attention you see...


It becomes a rhyme to where

there’s no reason, just inconsiderate

and selfish human decision.


So, do what I do, and cry it all out,

then continue on with your life, and

realize wisdom has come about.


Be brave, be thankful, and be willing

to let go; don’t pretend it’s not

hard, but never let them walk away

with your soul.

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A Lover's Plea

I miss. I miss, a beggar's bliss, of

attention and words so remiss.


Talk to me again, help me see; that

the parting of us was meant to be.


It’s hard. It's so hard; to explore my

mind, and find those memories I

must now leave behind.


As days go by I fall into my bed,

grabbing pillows to cover my head.


Go away. go far away; if we cannot

be, I need this despair to forever

leave me.


I can’t seem to stop, but I know I

must; I have to accept that I was

just lust.


Darkness still falls; daylight still

breaks, but without him, my life

remains in a state of disgrace.

Were these poems just as good to read since I was writing from my past not my present feelings?

See results
Source

Broken Porcelain

I had a dream, and it wasn’t

me embraced in your arms. It

was you letting me go.


I fell back in a black hole. Down,

Down, down, I go…


emotion choked; I woke up, sweating

the truth, and feeling so rough.


My mind was reeling from the shatter

of my dreams. How did I let this lie

happen to me…


dropped again, a porcelain doll breaks,

and the glue cannot keep fixing her

blasphemous mistakes...


Year after year the cracks become more.

Why can’t she just be happy alone to

explore...

Questions & Answers

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      • Missy Smith profile imageAUTHOR

        Missy Smith 

        2 years ago from Florida

        Yes, and I see you have been chosen for that site as well. Congrats! It's really exciting to be on different web pages, that means our work has a better chance of being seen. Thanks Hari. :)

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        Hari Prasad S 

        2 years ago from Bangalore

        Congratulations for getting your hub in letterpile. Once again a great and heartfelt treacherous journey shared here. Such a truthful depiction is a rarity. Missy you are an exception. You inspire me too a lot. So much strength comes from sharing and baring it all with positivity is so encouraging. Isn't it.?

        Well done. Take care.

        I have my version of similar feelings.

        https://letterpile.com/poetry/God-of-Fate

        - hari

      • Missy Smith profile imageAUTHOR

        Missy Smith 

        2 years ago from Florida

        Hey Deb, it has been difficult to let a certain person go in my life, but you do come to a point in life where you find the strength to do so in order to not lose yourself. Thank you, ~Missy

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        Deb Hirt 

        2 years ago

        It is so hard when you look like a fool, making you wonder what is wrong with you, but there is nothing at all. Glad to see that it is now time for YOU to discover more of yourself, and not waste time with someone that drains you of your vitality.

      • Missy Smith profile imageAUTHOR

        Missy Smith 

        2 years ago from Florida

        I like that you describe my poems as draining, Frank. I think that is the best compliment coming from you, because your flash stories can be just as draining, but it's a good drain. The draining factor in your stories is what leaves the readers with despair and sadness, and some frustrations, which is what you want them to feel reading a murder scene, and it's what I want my readers to feel reading despair and sadness. Thanks buddy! ~Missy

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        Frank Atanacio 

        2 years ago from Shelton

        broken porcelain is my favorite of your trio.. draining poetry, but in a good way Missy, missed your work glad you posted again..:) Frank

      • Missy Smith profile imageAUTHOR

        Missy Smith 

        2 years ago from Florida

        Hello Dear John,

        Thank you so much. It is a great honor to be picked for these other sites within the hubpage network. I have this one and the one that went to Delishably.com. I'm hoping some more will get picked in the future.

        These poems were really fun for me to write. I know they have a sort of sadness surrounding them, but hopefully some great messages to others that may have had similar situations and feelings.

        It's been a little hard getting over here to hubpages to post some of my writing lately. The end of the school year always seems busier for me. The kids have more activities going on.

        Thank you again, Peace and Blessings ~Missy

      • Missy Smith profile imageAUTHOR

        Missy Smith 

        2 years ago from Florida

        Thank you, Swalia. I do like to write things that others can relate to. You are always are so gracious with your comments. I appreciate them so much.

        ~Missy

      • Missy Smith profile imageAUTHOR

        Missy Smith 

        2 years ago from Florida

        Hey Dana,

        I'm happy to see you here. You are right, bad relationships definitely teach us what we don't want. We become mature enough not to settle for someone who doesn't have the ability to love us for our complete self. I'm not sure I will ever find this person to be honest. At this point, in my life, it would probably be like a needle in a haystack discovery. I think I must be too complex for most. I'll never lower my standards or ways of thinking though, so whatever will be will be. :)

        Thank you for stopping by to read these poems, Dana. It's always great to hear from you. Your friend, ~Missy

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        John Hansen 

        2 years ago from Queensland Australia

        Firstly, Missy. Congratulations on having this selected for LetterPile. Well done. Once again, another great hub by you. Believe it or not, I have experienced some of these things myself. Thought I was in love, only to have that illusion shattered. I guess you learn from each experience, though.

        Anyway, I feel this trio of poems were among the best you have written. I really enjoyed them. I am sure your "Romeo" awaits you.

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        swalia 

        2 years ago

        You bare your heart and soul in your poetry. I can so relate to these poems of yours. I loved the concluding lines of the first poem:

        "Be brave, be thankful, and be willing

        to let go; don’t pretend it’s not

        hard, but never let them walk away

        with your soul."

        Nobody is in charge of your happiness but you. Stay happy, stay blessed!

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        Dana Tate 

        2 years ago from LOS ANGELES

        Missy, you're comfortable in your skin. That type of maturity doesn't come easy. It can be intimidating to people who are still trying to find themselves. The best thing about bad relationships is it teaches you what you don't want. Armed with that information you can focus on the qualities that you do want. I have no doubt your prince will come along. I loved all three poems.

      • Missy Smith profile imageAUTHOR

        Missy Smith 

        2 years ago from Florida

        So right on, Paula. This passion within me is driving me on; it's passion for peace for sure. Love, even if it's become the unconventional way just through loving my friends and family and even strangers I may meet that have themselves an impassioned personality.

        I often think of all the good people I have met all over the world here online. In that way, the Internet has been a real gift, and it makes me a little sad when others do not use it in this way.

        On my Facebook page, I have a lot of people I've grown up with here in this town, and I will admit that I get curious to look at their friends and conversations. They are nothing like mine. They have no friends from different countries; actually, they cut down immigrants quite often, and when I realize this, I have a mix of emotions. The fact that the very thing that makes me the happiest, and even closer to God, makes these people racist and hypocritical for calling themselves Christians. I guess I mention this, because I saw this just today and thought about it, and your comment made me realize this is what makes me happy, loved, and in peace.

        I have really enjoyed, as Bill said, peeling back my layers for the world to see. It's an incredible feeling of freedom for me. I wouldn't be able to turn back now. :)

        As always Paula, your comments make me thankful that I have met you and other wonderful people, who have truly grasped what life is really supposed to be about. Much Love, ~Missy

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        Paula 

        2 years ago from Beautiful Upstate New York

        Missy....A wonderful trio of poems filled with gut-emotions. Your gift just keeps improving. Yes, there is a purpose for all we experience. We can learn, move on and find true purpose or despair & give up.

        When we desire love, happiness & peace, giving up is never an option. I see you are well aware. Peace, Paula

      • Missy Smith profile imageAUTHOR

        Missy Smith 

        2 years ago from Florida

        Thank you, Bill. I think sometimes I understand myself too well and maybe it intimidated the relationships I was in. It seems I attract control freaks, so I assume I didn't make their power easy to obtain. Lol. I'm just joking. Who knows why things happen in the way they do. I think purpose is there though, even if some of us are left alone, we find the purpose for that if we can stay open minded.

        Thanks again, ~Missy

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        Bill Holland 

        2 years ago from Olympia, WA

        Single, married, single and now married....so glad the heartbreak is gone, but of course so much of that heartbreak was caused by me not understanding myself....soooooo

        Loved your poetry...love the way you peel back your layers and allow us to see underneath.

      • Missy Smith profile imageAUTHOR

        Missy Smith 

        2 years ago from Florida

        It's always a pleasure for me to find your comments on one of my hubs, Venkat. Thank you for all the wonderful words you express to me, and I think so, I agree I'm becoming more courageous and brave as years continue.

        Writing does take practice in order to become better. Every time we decide to put something down for others to read, it takes guts to do it, and I think it is always a learning process. I like that about writing.

        The song I chose is very beautiful and one I could relate my own life to a few times over now. It's always hard letting go and starting over, and it does come down to one last cry, before sucking the reality up and moving on. I know this all too well.

        Again, it's always such a pleasure to here your thoughts on my work, Venkat. I appreciate it more than you know. :) Peace be with you always. Your friend, ~Missy

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        Venkatachari M 

        2 years ago from Hyderabad, India

        Beautifully expressed your past feelings and emotions. It was much appealing and touching to my heart. But, I am confident that you are a brave girl and courage enough to face any kind of circumstances.

        The last video is also much emotional and moving my heart.

        You are a better writer and keep on writing and never feel depressed. One can live alone very well. And, your children are there to support you. God bless you.

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