Loving A Monster
Rosemary is author of six books on mental health and inspirational poetry. She is a motivational speaker and a volunteer peer advocate.
I loved you
For the monster that you are
I did not know
That you were empty inside
All my life
I believed your lies
The way you related to me
Made me codependent and me I sometimes despised
I had to learn
how to grow
To let go of past ties
In time I grew more and more
Became stronger and stronger
And in prison to you I am no longer
You bought me any way you could
Sometimes you used money to get me to do your bidding
Unfortunately your lies and deception
hurt not just me but others as well
This is just my tale to tell
Of how we can overcome
You played your role
you needed others
And used your children
As you were a mother
To entertain you
To keep you company
While dividing them against each other
It's really been painful
time and time again
And now that you're 87
Perhaps it has to end
I no longer can be a victim
No matter what it costs me I need to be free
Free of pain
Free of jealousy
Free of whatever tricks you try to throw my way
Your emptiness inside
made you think it was okay to lie
This desperate feeling in you
Was what controlled your actions
I do hope that if there is a God
He forgives you
For all the pain and bullshit
You put us....through