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Lost Clown: A Poem with a Commentary about the Mind of a Clown

Paul is an Engineer. A graduate from a Catholic University. A rebel and a romantic...


Lost Clown

All the curtains had come down
The circus had left the town
Back are the days when we frown
Farewell to the happy clown.

Cotton candies are now stones
The ice creams had left their cones
Glitters scattered on the floor
Laughter…giggles…heard no more.

See you someday happy clown
Here’s the rainbow colored crown
I hope and pray you don’t drown.
Farewell to you happy clown.

The song Send in the Clowns

A commentary about clowns

A clown is a comic performer who usually does slapstick to entertain a crowd. Clowns are often hired during children's party to provide comic relief. They wear colorful costumes, wears the iconic white make up with painted smile, usually mimes, and some do magic tricks.

Ronald Mc Donald is a popular clown. But recently, clowns made mark as film antagonists thanks to the recent blockbuster movie "It" and the stellar performance of Heath Ledger (RIP) as the Joker in a Batman movie. Adding to the fear of clowns are the clown scare pranks which went viral on line. Coulrophobia is the fear of clowns.

From being part of a happy childhood memory to a metaphor for evil, clowns can also be a symbol of mental health. Imagine wearing a mask just to entertain people? I have always wondered how clowns feel when the party is over, the applause is gone,the make-ups removed, and they are all alone? Is it just purely business for a clown or do they remain hungry for laughter or applause?

Many people spent so many years being a "Clown". They do things to please the people around them. They live for the applause. So when they are finally kicked out of the circus, they don't know anymore how to be a man without a mask.

© 2018 Paul Balagtas


PoetikalyAnointed on December 15, 2018:

Thank you, Paul. You guys only know a tenth of what happened...

I pray for the same.

Paul Balagtas (author) from Philippines on December 15, 2018:

I hope he finds his true purpose in life, Poetilkaly Anointed. When you are a people pleaser you'd end up pleasing some and hurting others. Thank you also for bravely sharing your story. It's not always easy for others to share sad stories. But praise God for the courage and healing He has given to you.

PoetikalyAnointed on December 15, 2018:

My ex-abuser was definitely an attention seeker who had to "perform" for his audience in various ways.

He'd perfom for me with his deceit and betrayal.

He'd perfom musically for his fans.

He'd perfom for his family and what he was expected to do.

He'd perfom for his.abusers too.

Sadly, I don't think any of those made him happy.

I pray that he will eventually find his happiness. No one should live life Ike that.

Paul Balagtas (author) from Philippines on December 14, 2018:

Thank you for the comment Ms. Linda. I have always felt sadness in some of the ones I have seen. The mask smiles but the eyes don't.

Linda Crampton from British Columbia, Canada on December 14, 2018:

Your poem and the commentary are interesting and thought provoking. Clowns often look mysterious and very different from the people that we meet in everyday life. It does make one wonder about their real lives.

Paul Balagtas (author) from Philippines on December 13, 2018:

I had a look again at Mr. Mc Donald at he does look creepy. Yes, Poetikaly Anointed clowns (real or figurative) have this certain sadness or hunger for attention hidden behind the mask. We should really look at our lives and see if we are truly experiencing joy in serving people or is just happy for the attention.

PoetikalyAnointed on December 13, 2018:

Hi Paul,

I loved the poem and I totally get where you're coming from. I've never considered myself scared of clowns. However, I have to admit that Roland creeps me out a bit. I saw the most recent version of IT and dude is nothing to smile or laugh about. Surely it's confusing for kids when it comes down to parties in such.

As for the figurative clown, I'd had the displeasure of knowing a few.

You bring up a few good point. Do clowns really enjoy the laughs and take it for what it is. Or do they literally crave the attention and die inside when it's gone?

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