Lonely Words

Am I meant to be a writer

Are the words I carefully place in a curated order

appealing to any person other than myself

or the handful of people who already claim to love me

and my words before they are spoken

When I take time out of my day

to write

is it time wasted

because if in the back of my mind

I’m doing it for a later reward

for affirmation

and I never get that

shouldn’t I just stop

Shouldn’t I accept that the words I write for others will always remain for me