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“Letter To You...Don’t Be Afraid Of Me”: Educating Those Who Are Scared of Us

Bachelors Degree in Organizational Behavioral Psychology with a background in Autism, Mental Health, Business Psychology. Sales Management

Everything looked and sounded unreal. Nothing was as it was. That’s what I wanted-to be alone with myself from another world, where truth is untrue and life can hide from itself.”

–—‘Long Days Journey Into the Night’ Author: Eugene O’Neill


“I wish you could understand it, but you’ll never fully understand”


Processing Emotions When Borderline: Dear Society

I am my own worst enemy.

I am at times happy...but... it doesn’t feel right.

It feels weird to me... like it isn’t REALLY me.

From day to day; even moment to moment, I don’t know what to do or how to feel.

I Can not understand why it hurts so bad.

Words just become words with no meaning.

‘Hope’, ‘Love’ for example.

At the same time they have no meaning, a million emotions are screaming from inside me at the same time.

They are swift to change and I don’t know why or what’s going on.

As a neurotypical, this sounds crazy to you.

You feel emotions.

You can decipher them.

Understand them.

Control them.

You see me as emotionally unstable.

I feel all of them ALOT.

The intensity is magnified from what you feel or can even fathom.

  • Anger
  • Rage
  • Constant Frustration
  • Deep emotional pain
  • Self-hate
  • Anxiety
  • Confusion
  • Intense Fear
  • Insomnia
  • Loneliness

These are examples of what I feel at a steady interval of crashing waves.

Uncontrollable turbulent seas of constant uncertainty I drown in.

I have no idea why they happen or what caused them.

They just constantly exist.

I am fearful of what others can see.

I become who I need to be.

I trade faces of what and who I’m expected to be.

If I showed my true face? You would call me psychotic, crazy, insane.

Most commonly, we that live the borderline, have an irrational fear of abandonment.

Anyone that comes into our life, we deeply fear will leave us.

I push you away because I will break if you leave me behind first.

Self-sabotage to fulfill a self-fulfilling prophecy.

You could be the most unkind and abusive person to me.

In reality, no matter how you treat me, I will do anything for you to not leave me.

To me, as long as you stay, you are perfect.

Society Fears Me

Copyright 2020: Abigayle Korinne

Copyright 2020: Abigayle Korinne

Dear Lover, Friend, Partner, Spouse...I Hate You, Don’t Leave Me

Yet I hate you…

  • Do you still love me?

I have never known who I am.

I used to be someone different.

She is gone.

I barely remember her.

I do things I am not proud of.

Maybe even ashamed of.

I am told I’m an adult, to control myself.

But I can’t.

I do try.

Impulsivity beats me every time.

They don’t understand When I say...

I’m the most suicidal person you will meet, but afraid to die.

I don’t want to kill myself.

I just don’t want to exist in my reality.

You see my scars.

I see the stares and I notice the whispers.

When I cut myself, it eases pain I can’t get to subside.

I don’t want to do it.

I just can’t stand the pain.


Buried Alive Quotes and Sayings

Buried Alive Quotes and Sayings

“Love The Way You Hate Me”

Dear Humanity...

I function either feeling nothing at all...

...or always in a darker place than you can imagine.

It’s this void.

I’d give anything to fill that void.

I lash out sporadically at anyone around me.

I will say the most hurtful things and don’t mean them.

I try to keep myself from being so malicious and I can’t stop myself.

I do it to hurt you can’t hurt me.

There are days I want to run away, I’ve actually tried.

It follows me.

I am not a monster and not insane.

I won’t kill you in your sleep.

I’m just a victim of a lifelong relationship with abuse and trauma.

I am just learning how to survive…to cope.

Please just be patient with me as I learn to battle my demons.

Love me when I can’t love myself.

FFDP: “Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde”

Which is Your Downfall

Are You Scared Of Too Much Empathy? Or No Empathy?

 Borderline PDNarcissistic PDAnti-Social


Extreme (Too Much)

Multidimensional and dysfunctional

Déficit in Empathy (esp affective empathy). Affective and Cognitive empathy they are lacking at least one. May have no empathy.


Domestic Violence Common






© 2021 Abigayle Rourk

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