Life Is Not Black And White

More Like Light Grey

Each day I want to make simple and easy

You could say hassle free

Now we know that is not going to happen

My wife and I had a tiff

It happens

We couldn't agree

She tried to talk

I tried to talk over her

Each time I made a point

She picked through me like a pitch fork goes through hay

I'd back off

She would charge

I would come back strong

She would listen and silently fume

We were getting no where fast

What I thought was clear and important

She could not see how I did not see it her way

Insisting I should be by her side

I said I am but not in the way you want me to be

I thought all these years you seen it my way

Were you just appeasing me

How could you ?

You know how much it means to me

Instead of putting out the fire with water

We through a little gasoline to make it burn higher

It bothers me we can't be civil

Your the one raising your voice

We don't want the neighbors to hear

We asked for her aunt to give us an objective opinion

She agreed with my wife

I had to state my case

Then I explained my position

I hit a wall of bricks

Our aunt was not giving in one inch

This matter had to be resolved

I said I was willing to give in

I will see how the both of you handle it

It's not my place to go against my wife

I have to drop my weapons of choice

Rethink could I be wrong

Am I too stubborn to see the truth ?

Have I been wrong all along ?

I need more time to think it through

What harm will it do ?

If I examine my actions and the results

Carefully observing

No time to feel hurt

Am I just misundersttod ?

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Jodah 5 months ago from Queensland Australia

Been there done that, and I am usually the one who gives in and apologises first. I hope your situation has been resolved, Dream On.

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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Jodah I trust people and believe what they say they will do they will do. I like to give people the benefit of the doubt. I live every day with a positive attitude that I wear like a coat of armor while my wife can and likes to repeat the negative and say it is what it is. I think with that way of thinking you get hung up and can't see all the good that we create constantly by thinking and feeling good not unhappy because at this time in your life your facing a very difficult situation. I am aware of the problem but I am more focused on the wonderful solution. Thank you for reading and sharing. We are still discussing in a low key no pressure round about way. I just think so much more can be accomplished looking on the optimistic and bright side. Sometimes life deals us problems that take time to solve.

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Gypsy Rose Lee 5 months ago from Riga, Latvia

I love it that life is so colorful, so crazy, so incredibly exciting always something new to look forward to.

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shanmarie 5 months ago from Texas

I can relate to this one. It's especially hard to remain positive when presented with negativity that cannot be entirely avoided. But, here's something I've learned. . .even if you are wrong, we are all only human and there's still ALWAYS something to be positive about no matter what happens. I firmly believe that and it's gotten me through a lot.

Also, it is not always necessary to see eye to eye. When the "weapons" are laid down, does it really matter who is wrong or right? If possible, maybe seeing a bit from her perspective might lessen your own need for such strong defense. Just a thought.

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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Gypsy Rose Lee I agree when things are going great I look forward to the different degrees of excitement. When things are going bad not so much. Shanmarie I am not usually so judge mental and opinionated it's only when I think the outcome could be better and it could make a real difference in our lives. Nothing is guaranteed and I can see how I was overbearing and too over the top. Thank you both for hearing my situation and responding with helpful suggestions. Have a great night.

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Nellieanna 5 months ago from TEXAS

Often the best way to present one's viewpoint is just to live it by example and let it be understood as well as the other people are able to. After all, what is good for oneself may not apply in the same way or at the same time to the other person, who has a background & backlog of impressions and experiences with his/her own life which are valid to him/her. Just because one believes one's own views to be best - and they ARE valid for oneself - it's not possible to impose them on someone else, whose own view matter to them. If one's example 'speaks to' them, they may use it for themselves, but even if they do, it will not be identical in their application as it is in yours -- because they do not have the same background and experiences from which your perspective developed.

But that's OK. It doesn't mean that either person is 'wrong'. Of course, in a marriage, one wants the shared life to be harmonious. The only way it can be is for each partner to truly respect the other's positions. And things will change and grow together -- IF there are fewer confrontations and more patience with each other's positions all along in the constantly living relationship.

You can't begrudge the times she has been patient with your differences. She was not being dishonest and maybe was trying to 'keep the peace'. But she was doing it out of love, even if it wasn't that she agreed with you. Sometimes it makes things worse to try so hard to explain yourself. It is really saying that you're right and your way should be adopted by her, because hers is not right. Obviously, that unspoken but clear message does not win anyone over to your way! If she pretended it did, you'd hate that even more than not being agreed with.

I think it's unfair to bring in an ally for one of the partners, like her aunt, but it only multiplies the reasons for not trying to explain yourself to them both.

Being willing to allow your example / influence to speak for itself while giving her the benefit of the doubt & truly understanding that she has valid reasons for her positions does have hope of making life smoother in your home. It is not being weak or dishonest when you withhold the arguments for your position. It's being wise and considerate. At another time if there is mutual willingness to calmly discuss it without either of you claiming to be right, it could improve the atmosphere even more. But such a moment must be spontaneous and truly mutual. It can't be demanded or insisted upon or it would result in another confrontation of some kind.

Perhaps you know this in your heart. (smile)

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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Nellieanna I thought long and hard about your answer. How wonderful you made me feel. You were able to explain and comprehend. I couldn't get to the same answer. Even though I tried to see it clearly. There is so much value in another opinion. Thank you so much. Have a great day.

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Nellieanna 5 months ago from TEXAS

Yes, there is value in another opinion or 'take' on a situation. Still, one must have confidence in one's own understanding and opinion. The tricky part can be to allow others to have and to be confident in theirs, too. We are so conditioned to thinking there is one 'right' or 'better' way that we have difficulty realizing that for each person, there is a most right or best way for themselves, even if it differs from ours or from the general consensus. It almost goes against the grain to admit that there are other valid views for other people, though. We're taught and conditioned to doubt differences being OK. Rulers and demigods foster our belief that there is A RIGHT way - and, of course, they insist that it is the one they have or want us to accept.

There are few things, though, in which there is not room for valid differing views. And when one's views are used for and applied to one's own behavior and not for forcing them on everyone else, they become one's own identity & strength of purpose & character. And that speaks for itself. They don't have to clash with others' strong views. That is a choice of the people involved. But even if one is confronted with someone who is determined to insist that their view is the only right one, one can give benefit of the doubt to them and simply hold to one's own view without animosity or rancor. As you said another place, 'live and let live'. But so many people are terrified that if others have and are allowed differing viewpoints, their own will somehow suffer or be declared invalid and that the others’ will be forced on them. They don’t realize they have a choice and so does the other person, so they try to impose theirs and to force everyone to agree with theirs out of self-defense. It can become a vicious circle without resolution if both persons feel that way. But if you just refuse to participate in that battle, knowing it has no real 'legs', it is surprising how quickly it dissipates. At least you feel better and haven't expended energy on the futility of trying to persuade the other person your view is THE right one - or even that you have and claim the right to it for yourself.

When we do agree & share similar views with others, of course, it's more comfortable & it feels safe & good. So it's natural to gravitate to others with similar views. But we should not forget that it does not make those views the only 'right' ones.

All I did was try to see what you were saying from your viewpoint, by the way. If it helped you, I'm overjoyed. Hugs.

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DREAM ON 5 months ago Author

Nellieanna I spend most of my time on self improvement and learning. Carefully developing the power of observing. I love being happy in my own skin.What my journey may or may not bring. I an not sure how but the world of sound and music beautifully enriches my life. I enjoy tapping sounds, clicking,humming and whistling. I never have had a good singing voice. I do appreciate other people who sing beautifully. Thanks so much.

Nellieanna 5 months ago

So do I appreciate music and talent at it.

Dream on 5 months ago

Nellieanna No matter how sad I may feel after listening to soft soothing music for me I like country it puts me in a new place. One where I see things different and have new thoughts I didn't have before. Thank you for reading and your support. Have a beautiful day.

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