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LOVING AN ADDICT ~ A Poetry Compilation Plus

A Brief History . . .

Addiction comes in a variety of forms. For many years, I loved and cared about someone who was a drug addict. I desperately wanted to help this person through their illness to a happier life. I had hopes about our relationship and dreams of how things could be so wonderful without addiction in the picture.

It did not work out as I planned.

Four poems I've written, related to addiction and loving someone that is an addict, have been compiled here. I feel there is a story to be told.

Addiction is devastating in many ways: to the addict as well as those close to them.

No matter how much we may try to help, ultimately, it is not our choice. The addict must have a sincere desire to change their own behavior.

My hope is that by sharing my experience, it will help others in similar situations and also give addicts some understanding of what those that care about them go through.

My personal message to addicts ~ you are not alone, there is professional help out there if you want it.

My personal message to those in the life of an addict ~ you are not alone, there is professional help out there for you too. First and foremost, you must take care of YOU.

This is Sharyn's Slant


DRUG ADDICTION and A Brand New Start

A brand new start is possible.

A brand new start is possible.

DRUG ADDICTION and A Brand New Start

Originally published March 29, 2011


I will no longer allow drugs in my home

If that's what you want, you'll have to roam

Through the dark scary streets where drugs prevail

Where everything addictive is for sale.


I am stronger with each day that passes

And I'll get even stronger through special classes

So that I can hold my ground like never before

If you must have the drugs, I'll show you the door.


I will no longer live in the chaotic hell

The tip-toe dance we know so well

The lies and deceit are so painful you know

If that continues, you'll have to go.


I must continue to learn how NOT to enable you

You must feel the consequences of what you do

If remaining an active addict is what you desire

I will not be there to put out the fire.


Of course there will be struggles along the way

But I can only pray for the day

Your two feet are firmly on the ground

And I know you’ve turned your life around.


Taking care of myself is what I must do

None of this is meant to hurt you

I love you with all my heart

All I want for you is a brand new start.

ss


The Easy Way Out

Which road will you take?

Which road will you take?

THE EASY WAY OUT

Originally published May 4, 2011


Is that what you want

The easy way out

To leave this world

Without any doubt

That addiction was all

That you were about


I know it’s not true

Because I know you well

But others will just assume

Another life lived in hell


There’s more to your life

You have goals and dreams

They are important to you

At times it seems


So stop for a minute

Take a deep breath

Do not let them think this

When it’s time for your death


Do not let happiness

Pass you by

Please change your life

Before you die


Your family and friends

Will grieve when you’re gone

I pray it won’t be

Because your addiction has won


Do not leave this world

Hopelessly lost

Living as an addict

Never counting the cost.

ss


My Desire To Fix Your Addiction

Always putting out fires.

Always putting out fires.

MY DESIRE TO FIX YOUR ADDICTION

Originally published May 5, 2011


Yes I really wish I could

Often feeling that I should

Be the one to make it right

Help you in your lonely fight


I beg

I plead

I want you freed

From the devil’s destructive greed


Spent so much time

Trying to fix you

Help you turn around

Help you start anew


Do you care

Can you see

How my efforts

Exhaust me


Yes I really wish I could

Often feeling that I should

Be the one to make it right

Help you in your lonely fight


Today I finally understand

It’s okay to hold your hand

But I cannot fix you dear

This became extremely clear


This brutal battle

Not mine to combat

I truly only wish that


The daily struggles

Which you face

Were in my power to erase


The addiction cycle

Can be reversed

Do not live

As though you’ve been cursed


Yes I really wish I could

Often feeling that I should

Be the one to make it right

Help you in your lonely fight


Today I know I can’t fix you

Doesn’t matter what I do

The desire to change

Must come from your soul

I can only pray

It’s your ultimate goal.

ss


A CrAcKeD Life

A CrAcKeD Life (Addiction & Suicide)

Originally published November 17, 2011


What can I say

That I haven’t already

Said to you many times before

I’m left with so many questions

Need so many answers

Now you selfishly closed the door.


You gave up

Didn’t care anymore

When your life took a very steep curve

Why did you feel

That your life was not worth

The help that you so deserve.


You struggled a lot

Daily at times

But cheerfully always bounced back

I wish I understood

Why you quit fighting

Was it ultimately the Crack?


I was always there for you

To help you through

I truly gave you my all

I was so afraid

The day would come

That I would get the call.


Happy and sad

Manic and depressed

All at the very same time

No matter how difficult

Your life became

You always continued to climb.


So when I got the call

On October 8th (2011)

I certainly wasn’t prepared

I was in shock

And angry too

Thinking of all that we shared.


I always thought the call

Would be about

A drug deal gone wrong

You took crazy risks

This I knew

I was afraid all along.


Our past eight years

The ups and downs

Were certainly a bumpy ride

Yet I don’t think

I’ll ever get over

It ending in suicide.

ss


THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING!

My personal message to those who may have considered suicide: There is professional help out there, everywhere. Please find it.

I can only speak from the point of view as someone who was left behind after suicide. It is an absolutely horrible feeling knowing that someone you love did not feel their life was worth living. The shock and grieving that follow are like no other imaginable.

This is Sharyn's Slant


National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 800-273-TALK (8255)

National Addiction Hotline: 866-301-0367

National Alcoholism and Substance Abuse Information Center: 800-784-6776

National Drug Information Treatment and Referral Hotline: 800-662-HELP (4357)

National Alliance on Mental Illness: 800-950-NAMI (6264)

National Cocaine Hotline: 800-COCAINE (262-2463)

A beautiful song by Charles Wiles concerned about his friend's suicidal thoughts.

WHAT LEGACY WILL YOU LEAVE BEHIND ~ Have You Thought About It?

One More Reminder 1-800-273-TALK (8255)

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