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Insomniac: To You

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To you

When you said that I am like that
I never said a word to you
When you said I should do that
I never fought for myself

Because in the world of woe that you created for me
You are the monster that controls me
And it always break my heart to live everyday
And see my life wasted this way

You are a demon smiling in the angel's mask
You are a liar hiding in your sweet words
You are a storm in my peace of mind
You are a poisonous person

I wished to be better, I always do
Because you wanted me to be someone else
You believed that I am nothing
You filled my head with limitations
You broken my wings when I wanted to fly high
You always doubt my dreams
You always wanted me to crawl
You always wanted me to feel the pain

Let be breathe please
Set me free...
Set me free...
I wanted to hear my own voice
Live the way I wanted
Shout if I have to
Why it's very hard when you're around?
Why am I so afraid of you?

My smiles are invisible
Happiness is untrue for me
Death is saying my name
I don't wanna go
I wanted to keep these little shadows of hope in my well being
I wanted to let you see that I can survive it
I wanted to let you know that even I cry, I am strong
That whenever you imprison me with distrust and disparagement
I can still find a life in it

© 2020 Crezyl

Comments

Peggy Woods from Houston, Texas on March 08, 2020:

Your words speak of hurt and disappointment. Please know your worth and seek people who value you for who you are. God bless you!

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on February 04, 2020:

Crezyl,

It is always painful when we love someone so much we are willing to do anything to please him.

It's as though we gave up our own identity to make him happy...trying to make him see the things that are important to us, but he doesn't care at the time.

You can survive it! It is a broken hearted lonely road, but you will make it.

Keep writing! Keep your dreams alive. Let him see there is so much more to you than what he thinks.

Don't cater to his words...he is wantimg a response.

Take care of yourself...let him take care of himself. He won't be able too.

Lovely heartfelt writing.

Anya Ali from Rabwah, Pakistan on February 04, 2020:

Good poem!

Mark Tulin from Ventura, California on February 03, 2020:

I concur either others, poetry can help to heal.

Ruby Jean Richert from Southern Illinois on February 02, 2020:

I have written many times when I was hurt, and I always feel better. Stay strong. Be happy. Cheers.

Pamela Oglesby from Sunny Florida on February 02, 2020:

You certainly have stuggled with the oppresion from someone and your spoke freely of those negative emotions in this article. Be strong and move forward in a positive direction that makes life more worth living.

Crezyl, i wish you a better life with joy.

Eric Dierker from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A. on February 02, 2020:

Good stuff here. A pause to me. To think what imprisonment do I live in? This will have me thinking.

John Hansen from Queensland Australia on February 02, 2020:

It is good therapy to release your emotions, and writing them down in poetry is a great way of doing that. The deep feeling is what makes your poetry powerful and real. Good work Crezyl.