In The Mist Of It All

I Slouch Back

Thinking the same thought for hours now

Has my mind changed ?

No

Should it change ?

Maybe

How do I make the change ?

Think of something different

Nope

Thinking the same thing even longer

So that I will understand the thought in a different light

More thoughts will follow

That lead me from this hollow

I am confident I will see another opening

Another place to follow

I have to have patience

Let my brain go for a nap

Give my brain permission to relax

Kick back

Take a break

Everything is under control here

Nothing to worry about

On auto pilot

When my brain rests

I do my best thinking

Then when my brain wakes up again

I introduce a new thought to expand and develop

The thoughts have to come first from the inside

But not the brain

From the heart

That is a great start

We all have to begin somewhere

I think in the center of life is the heart

I am calm

I am wide awake with eyes wide open sometimes

Other times my eyes remain closed

I welcome my cat next to me

For animals give me great joy

They live for life

Especially my cat charlotte

The weather is changing outside my window

The night will appear

I am waiting for it

It is coming soon

My body sits still

The clouds I see are so massive and distant

I watch them change right before my very eyes

What expectations do I anticipate

For it is not the past that is so

If I did not look would they not change

If I did not know would they not go

What if I thought the sky would turn bright

Could it happen even at night

If I wanted to see rainbows from end to end

Do we live with a false sense of security ?

While the world is turning

A vision I wanted and didn't expect

Comes to me

At 5:12

I look and found the exact moment dark has found night