I'm One Hot Mess

Updated on January 23, 2020

I Watch Many Of My Ideas Go Up Into Smoke

I have learned to be o.k. with it

I am a dreamer, not a finisher

Everyone has there good qualities and bad

For as long as I can remember

I would think up things nobody else has thought of

Not in a bragging way

In a constructive and positive way

I would laugh when people would say I copied someone else

I read it somewhere

They could never find any proof

Talking and dreaming with each word that comes out of my mouth

As if it was happening right in front of my eyes

Friends and family would listen

They would sometimes sit with doubt and laugh it off

I knew better

I didn't always know-how

To make it happen

There was an instinct inside of me

A gut feeling it could happen

Maybe not today but in the near future

Sometimes maybe one or two years

Then other times as many as ten years in the making

I would say years later just like I said then

Remember, I told you

Most of the time

I got I don't remember you saying that

That would frustrate me even further

Like all I said didn't matter

A few times a few people would remember

Then I got validation

It was o,k, someone else carried out what I could only dream

I felt it was just a matter of time

I go into little bits of depression

A kind of funk

I get moody and irritable

People around me ask me why

I tell them

They say then you should of done something then

I say I would of if I could of

I never had the right group of people that would spend time and energy

Like me creating making things better

They think it is an excuse

It's not

You have to have a team of people to make things happen

Money and time are required

My ideas are ground breaking and revolutionary

Even if it is only in my head

I learned the only way I can get myself out of the place I don't want to be

Is to dive right back and create again

One day I will put the right combination together

It will be a day like no other

Until then thank you for coming along for the ride

Don't forget to buckle up

We might hit a few bumps in the road

I don't want to see you go flying

Now is the time you can yell and even scream

Give your lungs a good road test

Turn all your anger upside down on it's head

For happiness is layers and layers deep

Now they can rise to the surface

Then show you life at it's best


    0 of 8192 characters used
    Post Comment
    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      5 months ago

      John Hansen I wonder how many combinations there are to a good idea. I keep trying different ways and it is just a matter of time. I have patience and dedication. I watch how other people can find many ways to mess up their life and then they spend the rest of their life trying to fix a problem they created. Sometimes from substance abuse or through anger. I am the opposite. I want good and just keep on finding ways to make it a reality. It is a real challenge. Thank you so much for reading and sharing. The world is so large that so many things can happen every day. I might watch you make a good idea unfold and see how it happens and learn from you. Have a wonderful Friday.

    • Jodah profile image

      John Hansen 

      5 months ago from Queensland Australia

      Dream On, I am sure one day your dreams and ideas will actually become a reality and help many people or make the world a better place. Never give up, and I’d love to come along for the ride.

    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      5 months ago

      Lorna Lamon You give me so much encouragement. To know someone who reads one of my poems I get a personal high. One I have not been able to describe. It is like I am having my favorite dessert. It is so good. I could eat it all and not miss one spoonful. Instead, I decided to cut it in half and share it. Little did I know you also had your favorite dessert and decided to share. Now I can experience two favorites instead of one. The world just got a whole lot better. Thank you for being so kind. I appreciate all that you do. I get lost in my writing and forget about everything else. Sometimes I can't even find my way out. Does that ever happen to you? I want to pull the fire alarm to let people know it is important. But it is not a fire. I want to send up a signal flair but it is not an emergency. Maybe, I should get a blow horn. No, I think that will just aggravate everyone. So I quietly search for a way. To let people know I am still in here and I am always looking for a way out. I think I will just spend the night. Camping out was never the plan. It could be fun. Just one of my many thoughts that cross my mind. Thanks for dropping in. There is plenty of room. You could pull up an extra sleeping bag. I love to listen and the night is still young. Did you see the incredible stars in the sky tonight? So many people miss them because they forgot to look up. Just minutes later the fog rolled in. Well, it is getting late. I have to pull a double in the morning. Good night for now. Pleasant dreams.

    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      5 months ago

      Peggy Woods You gave me an idea. Maybe, I will have to write a poem about menopause. From a man's view. Since we already have men in the word. We should know something about it. I came up blank. I might have to do a little research and ask you a lot of questions to make sure I get my facts straight. When seeking expert advice why not go right to the source. Someone who has lived and experienced it. Thank you for sharing what is on your mind. I love how one little thought can grow into a bigger one. Not Perfect. Striving for perfection. Pushing forward instead of back. I think ideas are just a collection of people's thoughts put into a different light. So every idea isn't really my idea but someone's idea brought into focus Does anyone have a microscope? I think I broke mine. All I see is one big blur.(lol) Together we can solve all the world's problems. Alone we created them. Thank you so much for reading and caring. Today is going to be a great day. Have a beautiful morning. .

    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      5 months ago

      Gypsy Rose Lee You are on to something. Keep diving deeper and deeper into the unknown. Bringing greater joys that the world has never seen. Keep at it. Turn that struggle into an opportunity. I hear you. Nobody said it was going to be easy. The joy in your work shows. So don't let anyone fool you. You are so close. Give it you're all. Every time you think you are tapped out. More thoughts come and you can start all over again. Thank you for reading and giving such passion. We all need to work together instead of fighting one another. We seek the same dreams. We just have a different way of going about it.Everything happens for a reason. We just have to keep searching for that reason.

    • DREAM ON profile imageAUTHOR

      DREAM ON 

      5 months ago

      Linda Crampton I love to dream but to make a dream important is to find a way to share it with the world. Then everyone can benefit. In hopes that one more person can take that dream and carry it one step further. Creating a new, bigger and better dream. My goal is to connect dreamers with doers and then have the perfect combo. So other people can understand the value and the importance of every thought we think. Our dreams come to us all the time. Not just when we are sleeping. One dream is no more important than the next. They all have value. Carrying out the dream is so much harder. Dreams seem to clash with the real world. Only the strongest will survive. Thank you so much for all your encouragement and support. I wish you could also tap into your dreams. Giving and sharing the gift of imagination. Happy Sunday.

    • AliciaC profile image

      Linda Crampton 

      5 months ago from British Columbia, Canada

      Being a dreamer is great. Maybe one day your dreams will become a reality, even if the process requires a long time. Good luck!

    • Gypsy Rose Lee profile image

      Gypsy Rose Lee 

      5 months ago from Daytona Beach, Florida

      Struggling as I am day to day I no longer stretch my nerves just every time I hit a major bump in the road I hear the song shout, shout, knock yourself out in my mind. I hope you have a great weekend.

    • Peggy W profile image

      Peggy Woods 

      5 months ago from Houston, Texas

      I thought by your title that this would address menopause. I'm glad those days are in the rearview mirror. (Smile)

      Keep dreaming! Perhaps someday your ideas will gel into something worth patenting and something that will help mankind.

    • Lorna Lamon profile image

      Lorna Lamon 

      5 months ago

      I think this world would not be as colourful if we didn't have dreamers. Your pieces always tell such wonderful stories.


    This website uses cookies

    As a user in the EEA, your approval is needed on a few things. To provide a better website experience, letterpile.com uses cookies (and other similar technologies) and may collect, process, and share personal data. Please choose which areas of our service you consent to our doing so.

    For more information on managing or withdrawing consents and how we handle data, visit our Privacy Policy at: https://maven.io/company/pages/privacy

    Show Details
    HubPages Device IDThis is used to identify particular browsers or devices when the access the service, and is used for security reasons.
    LoginThis is necessary to sign in to the HubPages Service.
    Google RecaptchaThis is used to prevent bots and spam. (Privacy Policy)
    AkismetThis is used to detect comment spam. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide data on traffic to our website, all personally identifyable data is anonymized. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Traffic PixelThis is used to collect data on traffic to articles and other pages on our site. Unless you are signed in to a HubPages account, all personally identifiable information is anonymized.
    Amazon Web ServicesThis is a cloud services platform that we used to host our service. (Privacy Policy)
    CloudflareThis is a cloud CDN service that we use to efficiently deliver files required for our service to operate such as javascript, cascading style sheets, images, and videos. (Privacy Policy)
    Google Hosted LibrariesJavascript software libraries such as jQuery are loaded at endpoints on the googleapis.com or gstatic.com domains, for performance and efficiency reasons. (Privacy Policy)
    Google Custom SearchThis is feature allows you to search the site. (Privacy Policy)
    Google MapsSome articles have Google Maps embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    Google ChartsThis is used to display charts and graphs on articles and the author center. (Privacy Policy)
    Google AdSense Host APIThis service allows you to sign up for or associate a Google AdSense account with HubPages, so that you can earn money from ads on your articles. No data is shared unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Google YouTubeSome articles have YouTube videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    VimeoSome articles have Vimeo videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    PaypalThis is used for a registered author who enrolls in the HubPages Earnings program and requests to be paid via PayPal. No data is shared with Paypal unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook LoginYou can use this to streamline signing up for, or signing in to your Hubpages account. No data is shared with Facebook unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    MavenThis supports the Maven widget and search functionality. (Privacy Policy)
    Google AdSenseThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Google DoubleClickGoogle provides ad serving technology and runs an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Index ExchangeThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    SovrnThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook AdsThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Unified Ad MarketplaceThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    AppNexusThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    OpenxThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Rubicon ProjectThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    TripleLiftThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Say MediaWe partner with Say Media to deliver ad campaigns on our sites. (Privacy Policy)
    Remarketing PixelsWe may use remarketing pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to advertise the HubPages Service to people that have visited our sites.
    Conversion Tracking PixelsWe may use conversion tracking pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to identify when an advertisement has successfully resulted in the desired action, such as signing up for the HubPages Service or publishing an article on the HubPages Service.
    Author Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide traffic data and reports to the authors of articles on the HubPages Service. (Privacy Policy)
    ComscoreComScore is a media measurement and analytics company providing marketing data and analytics to enterprises, media and advertising agencies, and publishers. Non-consent will result in ComScore only processing obfuscated personal data. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Tracking PixelSome articles display amazon products as part of the Amazon Affiliate program, this pixel provides traffic statistics for those products (Privacy Policy)
    ClickscoThis is a data management platform studying reader behavior (Privacy Policy)