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I thought mountains are still been moved ?
But here I am, stucked with this
Healing isn't anywhere near
This isn't the move
This isn't a sign either
I feel emptiness
I thought I have moved this mountain
Should I go back to being Plato?
I can't be drunk in drugs again
I av play a lot of reverse psychology on my demon
I still see that shiit winning
I need a win win for myself not being assisted
Btw I thought I'm better off without my pack
Wtf is wrong with my alter ego
I can picture greatness but that was yesterday
How do I go from a tiger to a toad
That move is backward
Diazepam really was a good fiend
Like I really miss knowing that I'm doing this shiit
I'd be conversing deeply with my imaginations
I miss the home in my kind destruction
I'm stuck b/w living for now and all things vanity
I looked in the mirror and who I saw wasn't me
I saw pain, lust, lost, loser, broken and demented
I guess I'm better off diagnosed with schizophrenia
Like I want the world to hear me but I av nothing to say
So I lock myself up and test the level of my numbness
I fall in love with everything but nothing seems enough
I'm hoping it wouldn't be DOA when it's all won for me
A gun is pointed at me and I'm behind the trigger
I hope I don't lose me for nothing
It's unimaginable trying to picture my thoughts
Hey spirit animal, what am I not doing right ?
Come get me
It's you I need not the pack
Come get me.
© 2020 Christopher Ndulue