Emee.chan feels that she's still not there where she's meant to be when it comes to writing. Doesn't mean she won't be in due time.
Still Haven't Written What I'm Searching For
I'm slowly filling out
My phone with notes,
Full of ideas for future
Poems and some quotes.
Surprisingly, my phone didn't
Start reciting any of
These writings, so it's safe to say
It's not yet close to bursting.
There are days when I just stare
At a blank page, my mind void of
Words or any phrase that could
Start me off on my creative path.
It doesn't stop me from trying, though.
Sometimes more effort is needed,
Once I relax and just let go,
An idea sparks in my mind.
Writing makes me feel content,
Inspires me to use my brain
For something better than
Constantly worrying 'bout this and that.
I still haven't got to writing
That poem, that story, that quote,
The one that'll make me say
"You're my greatest so far!"
Don't get me wrong, there are
Works that I'm proud of.
Some even surprised me
How well they've been written.
But I feel something,
Somewhere deep in my soul,
That tells me to keep writing,
To keep creating more.
It pushes me forward,
Not letting me give up on writing.
I still have so much to learn,
So many gems to discover.
I might not reach the heights
Of greatest writers of all time.
I'm not aspiring to be the next Austen,
Just trying to express my point of view.
If I touch the hearts of those who like
What they read, who don't mind
My quirks that aren't always easy to hide,
I'll be more than happy because it was
One of my goals from the start.
If I said I'm searching for perfect words in order to write a PERFECT poem or a story, I'll just be contradicting myself, considering that I've already mentioned how I think that perfection is overrated.
So I guess I'm not trying to write something perfect. I'm trying to write something that'll resonate. Something that'll shake up my soul, making me say "You sure outdid yourself with this one, girl!"
And maybe, it'll cause a similar reaction amongst people who happen to read that work of mine.
U2- I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For
© 2021 Emilija Veljković