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I See You Standing in the Background

Summer is a Freelance Writer, who struggled at a point in her life to walk in her higher calling. Now, she embraces who she's becoming.

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I see you standing in the background,

contemplating which direction to take,

should I go left or walk right?

Or, should I stay blinded by the stigmas,

that's attached to my side?


I wear them like badges.

They're written on my heart.

I want to be set free,

but, I'm immune to the dark.


The truth became a figment of my imagination,

while false accusations smother my beliefs,

leaving every dream I'm chasing to relocate my hopes,

as I push them away.


Daily, I awake without purpose,

trying to muster up enough strength,

to take my dreams off of pause and press play,

by rewinding the hands of time and fast-forwarding,

to embrace every opportunity I was about to forsake.


You know that feeling when you're awake, but sleeping?

When you're alive, but barely breathing,

and you can give the best advice,

yet, suffer from your own unaccomplishments?


Yes, I suffer from those diseases!

They're called, "abandoned by my father,

witnessing a struggling mother,

a family that hates me,


my ex- lover who forsook me and had a baby,

my mothers ex-boyfriend nephew tried to rape me,

and I'm fighting the enemy,

spiritually; constantly."


So, I'm left as the broken girl,

trapped inside a twenty-two year old body,

crying out for help,

but no one can hear me,


because the tears,

aren't flowing from my face.

However, they reflect,

within every decision that I make,


and truth be told,

I want to break free,

but liberation is the toughest challenge,

I have to face.


I see you standing in the background,

contemplating which direction to take,

should I go left or walk right?

Or, should I stay blinded by the stigmas,

that's attached to my side?


I wear them like badges.

They're written on my heart.

I want to be set free,

but, I'm immune to the dark.









© 2021 Summer A Pennerman

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