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I Am Not Shy - Am I?

Updated on October 1, 2017
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Shannon is a passionate individual whose feelings and thoughts sometimes spill onto the pages in the form of poetry.

I'm not shy

Am I?

I hadn't thought about it all that much

Not since I was a small child and such

But lately and tonight in a new crowd

The thoughts in my head made such a loud sound

But I'm not shy

Am I?

I looked around at all the happy faces

Moving about yet staying in their respective places

Feeling not unlike an invisible ghost

I knew not a soul, not even the host

But I'm not shy

Am I?

I know exactly what is expected of me

Like working in retail, smile politely and chat graciously

I feel singled out, though I'm gregarious and amiable

Alone in a crowd even though I get along with most people

But I am not shy

No, not I

I think to myself as my mind shouts out

"Go now and mingle - go walk about!"

But I'm comfortable here, right where I'm at

Even though the way to make friends is through a chat

I am not shy

Not I

I am just me, the same as I've always been

It's never easy to make a close friend

Because deep down at my core I'm just an introvert inside

And I will no doubt be that way until the day I die


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      Mary Wickison 27 hours ago from Brazil

      This is exactly like me, I too worked in retail and was bubbly, but put me in a party atmosphere and I'm a bag of nerves.

      I think if we realized most people are uncomfortable in these circumstances, that we aren't the only one, it would ease everyone's worries.

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      shanmarie 8 days ago

      You could have just described me. I totally understand what you mean. That is exactly I mean by being able to do things like work in retail.

      I like people. But I particularly cherish the close relationships and am devastated when one is lost.

      And you're right that extraversion is overrated! LOL. It's exhausting just thinking about the mental energy required to focus on always being lighthearted with strangers else they think I'm rude for not smiling and interacting. It's a strange oxymoron to need to socialize for well being and to be drained by it at times, too.

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      FlourishAnyway 8 days ago from USA

      As a child, I was painfully shy. It didn't bother me, but it concerned teachers and my mother who wanted me to be more extroverted. As a teen and adult, I could be as extroverted as I needed to be, particularly when there was a motivated purpose behind it such as raising money for a cause I believed in. However, that never changed the fact that I prefer to be with the small number of people I know and trust. I liked your poem, as it struck a chord. Extraversion is really overrated.

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      shanmarie 11 days ago

      Thanks for the chuckle, Shy! Ibso choose, but only once in awhile and never if it's beer. LOL

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      Shyron E Shenko 11 days ago from Texas

      Shannon, my name is Shy, but I am not.

      I love your poem

      I do not like booze

      For if I drink it, my breakfast, lunch and dinner I will loose.

      But, you are welcome to it if you choose.

      Blessings my friend

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      shanmarie 12 days ago

      LOL. I don't like to be drunk. Only one time ever I was all our drunk and I said never again. I think I was about 18 at the time. I remember most of the experience fairly clearly. Some lessons learned illegally are worthwhile. LOL. But I am definitely more likely to be part of a party after a drink or two. I don't know about the life of one....haha. Thanks, Nell.

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      Nell Rose 12 days ago from England

      Oh that is so me! all my friends thought I was the life and soul of the party! but no! unless I have at least two brandy's down my throat! lol! what a great poem!

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      shanmarie 2 weeks ago

      Thanks. Yes, in many ways, it is easier to socialize on the internet.

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      Gypsy Rose Lee 2 weeks ago from Riga, Latvia

      Most expressive poem. I too am an introvert and do well on the Internet but not with people there with me.

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      shanmarie 2 weeks ago

      Oh my gosh, Jackie. LOL. I don't think I would ever want to be a star! I mean, you and I could both do it. But it might be a love/hate kind of thing.

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      Jackie Lynnley 2 weeks ago from The Beautiful South

      I do understand what you mean. I ran a business for years but I am also an introvert and I think everyone of my customers would have been surprised to have known that.

      Guess we were just not meant to be stars, huh?

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      shanmarie 2 weeks ago

      Hi, MsDora. Always a pleasure to see you. I have been thinking about the differences lately and how under certain circumstances I have no problem at all interacting with strangers and under others, I feel like it's a huge chore even though I want to make friends and get to know people. Let's just say that to me, allowing someone to know me more intimately is not something I take lightly. Nor do I take it lightly when others open up to me that way. I am very one on one or small group oriented.

      I listened to people and came back here to write. But it feels more like being in that crowd now. I am not necessarily uncomfortable around most people, but I am no longer comfortable either. And as someone who sincerely appreciates the deeper connection with people, something is missing here now more than ever. I can't really look at most online friendships the same as I used to when I made no distinction between the two.

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      shanmarie 2 weeks ago

      LOL, Eric. It's always nice when someone relates to words and finds something that means something to them individually in their meaning. How exhausting to know everyone. I don't even like the idea of self-promotion for writing even though I can be good at networking. It is impersonal yet somewhat personal... Friendly yet not necessarily a deep connection.

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      shanmarie 2 weeks ago

      Haha, Bill. Howdy to you, but I'm not shy. Not THAT shy anyway. Someone recently accused me of falsely presenting myself as shy and meek. I was surprised and tried to figure out how she would've reached that conclusion. I thought back about some of the things I'd revealed about myself through various conversations...and I'm not shy.... at least not as an adult.... I'm introverted. And I am a walking contradiction, like many of them. I like people, I thrive best with relationships. But I don't care much for crowds, especially very often. I prefer one on one and in depth knowledge of people U am closest to. I don't mind groups if I am already comfortable with the people.

      But I learned long ago how to work well with the public most of the time. Dealing with crowds at work is so different because I am not trying to gain a friend and it is not as personal. I know, makes little to no sense. LOL

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      Dora Isaac Weithers 2 weeks ago from The Caribbean

      I'm also mostly an introvert, but I don't think shy. Thanks for describing us better than most of us can.

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      Eric Dierker 2 weeks ago from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A.

      So you went ahead and wrote a poem about me. For me it doesn't matter if I know everyone or not.

      I really liked this, thank you.

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      Bill Holland 2 weeks ago from Olympia, WA

      Well I'm shy and proud of it!!!!

      LOL

      I might as well be proud of it because it doesn't look like I'm going to change anytime soon.

      From one shy person to another, Howdy!