How was I, then.
Amidst in the unknown place where darkness is everywhere; surrounding my environment with confusions.
Here I am living my life of loneliness knowing the independence against the world's cruelty.
The cold is shivering on the side of the road where I was standing but no one seems to recognize my appearance like I was indwelling my own nightmare.
I do not fear of dying in an instant but I was frightened to live without doing anything so valuable in my lifetime.
I shouted the air until it goes up to the highest level of the atmosphere to released the madness deep within me. But still, no one catches my attention.
How do I live like this? Is there really a God?
Even though I used to lived in agony for long years, I still feel so helpless.
I fear myself of being drowned in the phantasm of unrealistic expectations.
I was frightened to chase the time limit of my persistence.
But I realize that this is not the life that I want for my own history.
I found myself in the middle of a diversion road, wondering where to begin my never ending journey as long as I am alive.
So in order to survive this aberration, I forced myself to calm down and tried see the true visions of my existence. I watched the night rise while the sun was resting before I thought well.
Time went by, I think the costliness of my life begins now.
With just a step of my feet and a flick of my fingers, everything can change in just an instant.
I let them pass through me and observe how they ended walking through the endless road.
My nightmare lies only in my fantasy and now I am awaken in reality.
I figured out how will I find the true meaning of love, happiness, freedom, and peace. Like a bird who is confined in his cage and escaped from the darkness of loneliness and solitude.
Milestone after milestone, I decided to walk along with my dreams and hopes in order to preserve whatever I have.
I tried to navigate the direction of where I am travelling to surpass this storm.
On my journey, pain and sadness still did not depart from my soul.
But I saw on the other side of the shore, the sun rose again along with a new hope.
So I sacrificed my own preference of selfishness in-exchange for the life of peace.
Even if my candle in heaven becomes exhausted, I will do everything to make my lifetime become valuable.
Now I finally knew the conclusions of everything about the disturbance behind the touchstone in my own fate.
I figured out that violence is very fundamental to resolve the torment of destiny as life exist.
At this moment, I am ready to face the consequences of living in eternity where darkness doesn't reside in me anymore.
Because I believe at the end of the rainbow I will find what I'm looking for.
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