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Hiding Behind a Computer. Saturday's Inspiration 24

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Manatita is an esteemed author living in London, UK. He writes spiritual books, flash fiction and esoteric poetry, his favourite genre.

Wisdom From the Master

"Where love is thick, faults are thin.

If you really love someone, then it is difficult

To find faults with him. His faults seem neglible,

For love is oneness." - Sri Chinmoy

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Cobwebs within, disheveled and afraid,

I saw a luminous figure, speaking in the silence

Of my Heart. He asked if I knew why I was there,

Wanted to know what I had done for Him in life.


I had no answer. All my life I had been outward- looking,

Criticizing others, building walls against my own loneliness and fear.

I was attracted by the things I loved, as the gardener, his flowers,

Me, my adorable self, love weeping inside my selfishness.


The miser hoards his gold, sitting up on countless nights, worrying,

Anxious about tomorrow … of making more.

Me, I paid small heed to empathy, to selfless love; to prayer,

And now I seem to be in a realm where every single deed is counted.


I am anxious and alone, especially as I did so little for the Light,

Now scanning into my soul for benevolence.

I suspect It has already found my shadowed mirrors:

My fault-finding with the world; my blaming everything

Else but my own helplessness, and I’m scared.


I now long to shine like flowers; to have Love

Wipe my tears; bring sanity and laughter to a longing Heart.

For I had spent all my years, hiding behind a computer,

Blaming others for my inadequacies,

Unable to face the deep loneliness inside myself.


I had forgotten that everything I want, I already am,

That the Beloved was desperate to give me wings,

To soar into Her Heart of beauty.

Alas! I have left this world cold-hearted,

Only to awake in the tunnel, of the Ramada Inn of sorrow.


Manatita, The Lantern Carrier. 17th January, 2020

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Wisdom from the Masters

"One of the main faults of a fool is that he never changes his mind." -Sri Chinmoy

"The fault is in the blamer. Spirit sees nothing to criticize." -Rumi

Fault-finding

© 2020 manatita44

Comments

manatita44 (author) from london on January 21, 2020:

Yes, Dee. Very wise. Thank You.

Dora Weithers from The Caribbean on January 21, 2020:

As always, your journey towards the Light is touching and inspiring. You describe a conversion which any lost soul would desire. Sorrow has its place in such awakening.

manatita44 (author) from london on January 20, 2020:

Thank you so much Shauna. I looked at it and realised I was missing one line in that stanza. Now added.

You remain as sweet and sweeter than a blossoming rose.

Shauna L Bowling from Central Florida on January 20, 2020:

Fault-finding only helps if and when we realize that we are to blame on some level for that which we feel the need to complain or wallow in self-pity. Freedom comes with realization and growth naturally follows.

The last stanza of your poem says it all, Manatita. Beautifully written and easy to absorb.

manatita44 (author) from london on January 20, 2020:

Brenda,

I like your take on it. It was designed that way to encourage transformation. Still, it is the nature of the holy man to Love, as is the nature of the scorpion to sting. Let us see. Your sentiment are kind to me as usual.

Yes, Linda, it looks similar.

I won't worry too much. I suspect these things happen all the time to different artists. I really wish to try to love. So I will leave this alone. Like most of my friends, you are always kind to me. Thank you.

Linda Crampton from British Columbia, Canada on January 19, 2020:

You've told a powerful and thought-provoking story in your poem, Manatita. It was interesting to read. I always appreciate poems that make me think about their contents after I've finished reading them.

The poem that John found is obviously a paraphrased version of yours. Of course, the decision about whether to do anything about the situation is entirely up to you. I know you like to be kind. I think the writer's action was very wrong, however.

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on January 19, 2020:

Manatita44,

This speaks to me of a person nearing the end of his days looking about to see what his dash looks like.

Dash is a term that is used for what you have done with your life between birth and death.

It is much easier to do for oneself and to put blame on others.

This work of yours has a strong message.

Thanks for sharing.

manatita44 (author) from london on January 19, 2020:

Thanks John.

I do not wish to say it takes from my poetry, but is uncannily similar. It even uses the Monday Inspirations and it's also hard to come up with the miser thing as I did by accident.

I'm happy for the person. Seems well written. What can I say?

John Hansen from Queensland Australia on January 19, 2020:

Manatita, check out the title of this article...coincidentally very similar to your recent one, and by a hubber with no other hubs: https://hubpages.com/literature/Hiding-Behind-a-sm...

manatita44 (author) from london on January 19, 2020:

You are uttering words expressed eloquently by Sri Krishna and my own Guru. Not many would say so consciously, that the flowers belong to God.

What John says is an immortal offering from the Christ. Thank you so much!

Peggy Woods from Houston, Texas on January 19, 2020:

As a gardener, I do appreciate the results of my labors, and yet, realize that the plants do not originate with me. They are all part of the much larger universe and simply share their lives with us. As to fault-finding, I agree with what John Hansen quoted: "Let he who is without sin cast the first stone." Your posts always have the effect of making me wish to live a better life.

manatita44 (author) from london on January 19, 2020:

Perhaps,

That's a heavy word though. I myself have been guilty at times. But yes I'm speaking of those - you probably know one or two - who go around spreading negative vibes, fault-finding, to cover up their own inadequacies. They tend to feel it is their god-given right to police the world. Maybe you are right.

Lorna Lamon on January 19, 2020:

I read your poem with interest Manatita - beautifully written. However, coming from a Psychological point of view it speaks to me of a Narcissistic mindset.

manatita44 (author) from london on January 19, 2020:

Li-Jen

I suppose so. We have to try not to repeat it. No easy task. Buddha bless you.

Thanks Devika.

Seeing this is in itself a blessing. You are indeed favoured by the Beloved.

Devika Primić from Dubrovnik, Croatia on January 19, 2020:

I have encountered too many of that type of people blaming others for their own faults. You share every hub with a great meaning and a moral to go by it. Always something for me to ponder on and learn from here. Well done!

Li-Jen Hew on January 19, 2020:

Hi Manatita. Thanks for sharing the poem. There is a sense of vulnerability and longing and showing the realization of one's mistake.

manatita44 (author) from london on January 18, 2020:

Well, that is a different spin on it. Trying to change can only be a good start, I suppose. Thanks Donna.

Donna Rayne from Sparks, Nevada on January 18, 2020:

Manatita, fault can turn into victory. When you find vault it is then you have become away of it and the desire to change it is sparked and so the walls are town down and life can continue one!

I love your poem very much!

Very much so,

Donna Rayne

manatita44 (author) from london on January 18, 2020:

Ah, John.

You are so sweet! You now write rhymes as if you have mastered them.

You are the Sensei of my Chinese/Japanese films. (Sweet chuckle) That's my hobby. I love Chinese films for their spiritual content. Peace.

Thank you, Luis. bed soon.

Luis G Asuncion from City of San Jose Del Monte, Bulacan, Philippines on January 18, 2020:

Thanks Manatita. I always remember you too. How I wish, there will be time, I meet you personally. Okay, I will not disturb you anymore. Getting late already. Goodnight in your place. Happy weekend.

John Hansen from Queensland Australia on January 18, 2020:

To each his own, manatita. Your esoteric/devotional poems certainly have their place and followers, and you write them expertly. Some of us less spiritual and deep thinking types can better relate to the reflective pieces. But kudos to you, as you excel at whatever you turn your hand to.

manatita44 (author) from london on January 18, 2020:

It is 11:19 at night here. I will remember you in my bedtime prayers. Much Love.

Luis G Asuncion from City of San Jose Del Monte, Bulacan, Philippines on January 18, 2020:

Thanks Manatita. Hoping so, I will totally eradicate if blaming everyone when I did something wrong. I will always praying that. Help me pray too. In three hours from, we will go to the church for praise and worship.

manatita44 (author) from london on January 18, 2020:

Hi Ruby,

You're great! Always so good to see you. Much Love.

Ruby Jean Richert from Southern Illinois on January 18, 2020:

Blaming others for one's shortcoming is a disaster waiting to happen. This is a wonderful piece and a great reminder that we are all sinners, asking for forgiveness daily, and we have a Savior who loves us. Peace my poet friend.

Bill Holland from Olympia, WA on January 18, 2020:

"Love is oneness".....I love that simple phrase, for love truly is simple, and love unites all who are open to it, making many one. Blessings and love to you always!

manatita44 (author) from london on January 18, 2020:

This is what I mean. See how sincere you are! It is a great virtue. Keep on keeping on. Peace.

Luis G Asuncion from City of San Jose Del Monte, Bulacan, Philippines on January 18, 2020:

I love the poem.

Sometimes, I blame everyone when I was done.

But with prayers, I will stand.

manatita44 (author) from london on January 18, 2020:

Happy New Year, Patricia!

How's it going with you and yours? Good to see you and much Love.

Patricia Scott from North Central Florida on January 18, 2020:

Many of us hide away in our techie world easily pointing at the short-comings of others....pausing to recognize our own failures is the beginning of finding our way to peace. Well said, as usual, Manatita. Angels are headed your way...ps

manatita44 (author) from london on January 18, 2020:

Thanks Jodah.

This I put in the category of the reflective pieces, like Reflections For 2020 were. For me the esoteric poems are deeper, richer … more sublime, but paradoxically, their very characteristics make them difficult for many to reach. You can say this poem is more relatable, impactful or insightful.

The others are, but tend to be more devotional and with very rich images. Here's the thing. In poetry performances, humans like this kind of poems more, but the two or three people who come up to me to give praise for the deeper poems, say the most amazing things!

Finally, my most popular poem on Hub Pages, is called A Song For my Beloved. I'm praising God, but I have made use of nature fully to do so and people really liked that one.

As you know, poetry varies for different reasons, some aesthetic, romantic, ethereal and meta-physical to name a few. Some like despair as it's therapeutic for them and others are more direct in expressing unrequieted love. Thanks, Bro.

John Hansen from Queensland Australia on January 18, 2020:

Hmm, the words "Let he who is without sin cast the first stone" come to mind, as well as "People who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones." If you aren't perfect you have no right criticizing others (unless it is genuinely for their benefit and to help them.) Manatita, for me this is my favourite of any poetry of yours I have read.

manatita44 (author) from london on January 18, 2020:

Thanks Rosina.

You have a fairly decent grasp of it. I am a servant of Love and as such I do not wish for us to wait until it's too late, even while pointing out the perils of this.

I speak to the Heart of the aspiring soul, to inspire receptivity to a Higher Light. Thank you so much, my Didi ji. (Divine Sister)

Rosina S Khan on January 18, 2020:

I think the moral line behind your poem today is:" Do not keep finding faults with others and the world until it is too late". Is it not, Manatita? I believe so. Thank you for another wonderful hub.

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