Staying up at night writing,
trying to get rid of my feelings' fight.
Staring up at the ceiling,
trying to know what I am actually feeling.
Feelings inside me are always in a fight,
it ends me up with not knowing what to write.
Heart feels so fragile.
Mind feels so invincible.
I just can't deal with that battle.
What I know is that a person can be lost in one place,
But what a miracle to be lost in two places at once..
Feeling torn up,
part of me is fighting in a place
and the other part is fighting in another place.
Lost in my mind.
Lost in my heart.
Fighting my thoughts.
Fighting my feelings.
All of this is taking place in a person
who's just staring at the ceiling.
I'm about to lose myself.
I just can't help myself by myself...
© 2020 Niajuol Alisruon
Chrish Canosa from Manila Philippines on December 19, 2020:
Hey there! You might love reading books, try this one " The subtle art of not giving a *uck by Mark Manson " you will learn a lot from it.
Remember if you want to help your self it's only you who can, the people around you-us :-) will stand as your light while your touching those wounds of yours to heal.
Lots of love for you and make your day an awesome day!
John Hansen from Gondwana Land on December 19, 2020:
You have to find a way to channel those opposing feelings into a common goal. That may be easier to say than do. But writing is a wonderful way to harness those feelings into one place.