Fighting My Way Back

Updated on July 2, 2018
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Born and raised in Kentucky, I love writing, telling and listening to stories. Most of my works are inspired by real experiences.

Falling into water
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Fighting My Way Back

Entering this dark space regarded with loathing and dread

Feelings of hopelessness, sorrow, disappointment and fear

Trapping me there, crushing my spirit, feeling in over my head

Screaming in silent echoing voices for no one can hear


Replaying those terrible events-losses in life

Causing tears, anger and unrelenting resentment

All my days now seem filled with grief and strife

Struggling constantly with agonizing discontentment

Sinking into sadness
Sinking into sadness | Source

Endlessly sinking into despair, it seems

Further from the childish happy days I once knew

So easily leaving behind my dreams

And things I always thought would be true


Nothing seems right in this place I reside

Choosing not to accept what I know to be real

Reality cannot be accepted you see, my mind tells me it must be denied

And it feels as though my heart will never heal

Reaching for the surface, emerging from the darkness
Reaching for the surface, emerging from the darkness | Source

Fighting, pushing and willing my way out

Each day becoming a little stronger

Beginning to understand what it’s all about

Knowing in my heart this can go on no longer


Blocking the feelings and thoughts that haunt me

Trying to escape the nightmare each day

The sadness is now beginning to flee

But the memories will always be here to stay

Victoriously standing in the light
Victoriously standing in the light | Source

Then one day after this long arduous fight

I emerge victorious from the heartbreak and despair

Never knowing, how or when, things suddenly became light

There is an easier feeling now in the air


I know this will only last for maybe a short while

But I relish the reprieve I get from the madness

And now, in the end, I can give an honest smile

For I have defeated the nightmares and sadness

Learning to let go

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        Bill Holland 

        2 days ago from Olympia, WA

        And by the way, I lost my father when I was twenty and I still miss him terribly. That is called love, my friend. Hugs to you!

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        Delilah 

        10 days ago from Kentucky

        Thank you phoenix, it was and still is difficult but I'm getting better at dealing with it

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        Zulma Burgos-Dudgeon 

        10 days ago from United Kingdom

        My condolences. I can't imagine the grief you went through. But it won't last forever and, as you say, you overcome the pain and remember the good times.

        Lovely poem. Thank you for sharing.

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        Bill Holland 

        2 weeks ago from Olympia, WA

        We get knocked down, we get back up, and in that we see one of the more endearing traits of we humans. May your spirit be strong, my friend. Thank you for sharing.

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        Delilah 

        2 weeks ago from Kentucky

        Thank you Rinita, glad you liked it. Even though the way may seem hard, we just need to remember that ultimately things will be alright once again if we just hang in there, that has taken me a while to accept..

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        Rinita Sen 

        2 weeks ago

        Loved this! I like how it begins with despair and sorrow, and ends with hope and positivity. It could mean so many things to different people - grief of loss, sorrow of heartbreak, despair of failure, in all scenarios, ultimately there is a light to follow, which leads us to a new road. Thank you for sharing.

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        Delilah 

        2 weeks ago from Kentucky

        Thank you Jodah, I am also a believer that what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger and hopefully more prepared to take on the next challenge that may arise in life.

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        John Hansen 

        2 weeks ago from Queensland Australia

        Heart-wrenching words Delilah, but as Val says it shows your fighting spirit and encourages others to keep going because things will invariably get better. There are always more tough times around the corner but each obstacle we overcome makes us stronger to take on the next. Good work.

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        Delilah 

        2 weeks ago from Kentucky

        Thank you so much for that comment ValKaras. It took me a long time to realize that and I'm still working on facing it fully. Thank you as well for the encouragement =)

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        Vladimir Karas 

        2 weeks ago from Canada

        Delilah---A great poem about a fighting spirit. Sometimes it helps to stop running away from the pain---but instead face it squarely, with a smile, and almost with a daring welcome.

        For, whatever we run away from, we make it stronger. When we stop running an have a deep look into its very texture, it tends to evaporate. And when we, on top of it say: "Come on, give me more of it, I love it"---little miracle may happen.

        Whatever we fight we are fixated on. Ultimately we win by realizing that we have been fighting with some shadows.

        I still like someone's saying:

        "It's not our emotions that are hurting, it's our resistance to them".

        Keep writing, my friend, you make some fine poetry.

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