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Fantasize again

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Fantasizing is really not my thing, what I experience most is this black cloud of bad memories from the past raining on me so I don't get much time to think about nothing that can put a smile on my face....
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Its all me though.. I can think of good times if I wanted, but they just seem short lived so I try not to even bother.
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Just the other day, I thought I'd buried my feelings ... Turns out, even the dead come back to life in a way or atleast a shadow of them comes back...
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I don't trust newcomers or strangers ( my feelings), have always been a bad judge of everything...
Have been having migraines trynna contain the creepy strangers who won't just let me have peace of mind no matter how much coffee I consume.... Have a feeling they'll betray me, or worse they ain't even alive and am forcing myself to see them....
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I can't help it no more, amma let them blow up this time, bring them to life even of they ain't there...
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Think its time that dark rain really subsided ...
Time I wake up from everything that's dark...
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Time to fantasize again....

© 2020 Amani Utembu

Comments

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on August 23, 2020:

Amani,

Sometimes when it rains it pours but there will be a beautiful rainbow shine on you...hang in there.

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