Gel has been trying to write poems since she read Slammed by Colleen Hoover in 2013.
It started with something little I didn't even see "I need a refill" I'm still sipping my 3rd cup of coffee
That small act Started last week I was fine, I was in tact But then I became meek
"Maybe it's the coffee?" "Maybe it's PMS?" "Maybe I just need more coffee?" "Just not a good day, I guess."
It wasn't the caffeine That's keeping me awake PMS isn't making me mean Or put up this face, a fake
I was getting drowned again I have to keep afloat this time I'm not like I was back then I know my worth isn't just a dime
I don't have to digest Every little thing you say Or keep it all in my chest Making my own emotions decay
Or maybe it's my family That makes me feel small It's all my fault, really A lot of things I can't control
I wanna cry I wanna breakdown But they're here to pry And I don't want them to frown
I'm blessed despite it all So why can't I just be satisfied And live not dwelling on my fall I just want to confide
But I don't know what to say Or where to begin I just wanna go away But I also wanna win
Once more, I'm stuck I'm in the middle Just as my luck Begins to dwindle
My thumbs started to tap Word after word, I breathed This will be my map To my soul underneath
Dear myself, you are loved You make this world better You were just numbed You just needed a reminder
Just living through another day Already takes a lot And this little delay Gives you more time for your shot
Dear Myself, don't get lost again
© 2020 Genne Arcangel
Genne Arcangel (author) from Philippines on June 18, 2020:
Yes. This, too, shall pass
Ahlgilyn Cabanado from Philippines on June 17, 2020:
We're gonna get through this trying times.
Genne Arcangel (author) from Philippines on June 17, 2020:
Thank you for appreciating this. We all have times where we feel defeated or stuck but I believe that a break will always come through. So, rest if you're tired then move forward. No matter how small, progress is progress.
Brett Anne from Butuan City, Caraga, Philippines on June 17, 2020:
This is truly a remarkable piece! I loved every bit of it, as it also somehow relates to what i'm feeling. Thank you for sharing!