Just a moment to myself, letting others know how I feel and enter my mind. I want to influence others to write and go with the flow

A moment to myself

thinking of a simpler time when all was good and dandy,

I wish they knew how much they have hurt me

taking my self-esteem and drowning my dreams;

no one in this blood retail has the heart and sadly others can't see me for me.

At work or even through close friends they see the real Samantha,

They see a shy human with no motivation;

What I see is a woman with ambition

who loves to write and care for those that understand her.

Why can’t they see that?

Others who are not related to me even understand

my goals and my push in the things I do.

They say be content

to do what you love and my own blood drowns me with doubt,

It's a sad world when those who think they know you

try to change you and can’t comprehend what really makes our heart's content.

Not only do they think I am a failure

they have this thought in their minds that I’m not capable

of doing even the smallest tasks.

Basically to them, I’m mentally challenged;

a woman with no future;

coming from women who are unhappy with their own lives

picking on others who are fragile

hunting like wolfs looking for prey.

I will no longer be apart of their plan

its game time and I’m ready for the challenge

I will keep my heart open and my head raised high

believing in myself

who cares what others believe

only you can make your dreams come alive.