Doubting Pain
Doubting herself,
thinking she needs to
find the beginning again.
Doubled over to think
not wanting to show
the tears that are
reflecting in her eyes.
Losing herself to the
agony that she feels
inside of her soul.
Pained by the loss
of what was most
dear to her heart.
Destroying herself to
make the pain go away.
Tossing away what once
was the most important
part of her life in
return for the happiness
that she so needs to
have around her.
Not knowing how to
react to all of the
loneliness and sadness
that she is feeling
deep within her soul.
Wanting to know that
everything will be okay
in the end, but knowing
deep down that it
will never be okay again.
Overridden by the loneliness
drowning in the pain
suffocating from the loss
that is yet to come.
Hoping she can bear
the pain and still stand
tall in the end of it all.
© 2020 Emily