Don't Overthink
TaJuan is an aspiring writer hoping to gain experience and growth through publishing passionate works, like this one, online for the world.
Don’t overthink
I told myself as I glanced at the door
And the carpeted floor
I found myself in this place
For the exquisite taste
Fancier than anything I’ve ever known
Sweat shown
Across my forehead
I wished I were dead
Due to anxiety’s
Vicious grasp on me
Eventually
The server comes toward
Asking if I’m ready to order
For the third time in a row
And like the other two
I said, “no
But I’ll take another drink
She’ll be here
I think
I hope
I pray
Nope
There’s no way
No, stop
Not today
Don’t overthink.”
There should have been no complications
We had reservations
For this destination
At nine on the dime
What a shitty situation
To put me in
It hit ten
Where were you
Where have you been
You had me in a funk
Drunk
From bottles I can’t even say
Why’d you have to play
Me like this
Therapist
Tell me why people spread hate
Like,
We didn’t have to date
We could’ve just linked
Did I come off too strong
Did I say something wrong
No
You’re right
Don’t overthink
I was at a point past tears
Stumbling
Trying to get out of there
Mumbling
Words of despise
How many guys
Do you play your games on
Thinking I’d put the blame on
Me
Like it’s my fault
These overwhelming thoughts fed
Into my anxiety
So I halt-ed
Them and caught
Reality
The problem: it ain’t me
It’s you
So let hell be your next home
For I’m too grown
For this pettiness
Readiness
Is the only emotion I feel
My future
So bright
Though I took an L that night
As I left alone and famished
But anxiety vanished
Thoughts told me I won
The war between my brain and I
Done
You can put it in ink
From this day on
I no longer will
Overthink