Distracted Light on a Long Term Dimmer Setting
Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 13 years.
Started the month of October in full time sparkle mode
Not sure why; just felt like everything was firing on all cylinders
Now, down in the tubes by the middle of the month
Trying not to let one person destroy my internal shimmer
Very hard to do when you thought they were part of your future
Delusional to have thought such a joke of a human held that much importance
The flesh and blood personification of a crash test dummy
Always ramming his head into the same brick wall time and time again
Never learning from the past collisions and coming up with a new course of action
Heart transformed from a full formed organ into a carved up pumpkin
Of the badly cut up persuasion from one of the most unsteady hands
Impossible to put back together to its former glory
No amount of Gorilla glue and duct tape will get this Humpty Dumpty back to normal
Difficult to rebuild when the subject in question reduced to granulated mush
Taking a new clay model out of cold storage to start from scratch
Easier than putting back together the worst puzzle ever created
Feeling almost radioactive to the touch since the disaster happened
Turned from the most to the least interesting person in the world
Surely, not the case, but it just feels that way
Craving out a new identity harder than most would think
Starting over is not for the weak
It will take time, but the arduous journey will hopefully be worth the wait.
Fingers crossed.