I don't know why?
That I always doubt and afraid to try,
My thoughts are holding me, can't get away from it
Too vivid to forget and strong enough to beat
It's somehow destructive, pointing out my heart
Things might get risky, I don't want to fall apart
To let go is so hard, it could be a sad nostalgia
I don't want to repeat it, I'm eaten up by paranoia.
Everything is confusing, can't read it clearly
I'm not getting it yet but I know this is dearly
I just don't understand why I keep on coming back
This memories that keep me from taking the right track.
I want to get out, I want to start once more,
To be healed completely and to open a new door
It's the only way, I guess, for things to get better
And allow myself to see the reasons to be happier.
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