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Describing Myself

A language trainer & a passionate learner, eager to learn from everyone around. "Language is a form of river that doesn't have any boundary"

An Experienced professional trainer,

Who’s witnessed more than ten years

In dealing with various English learners;


A passionate learner of language,

Dedicated & devoted to the world of arts,

Creative, innovative, imaginative & sincere;


Stuffed with a lot of zeal and confidence,

Empathetic, sympathetic and compassionate,

I'm straightforward who can always be trusted;


Warmhearted, sentimental and understanding,

Spiritual and philosophic, a philanthropic individual,

Loyal and loving, I'm a benevolent intellectual.

An Angel of Dreams

When I was a child, I'd an unusual dream,

I used to see a fierce lion coming toward me,

Surprisingly, I was not scared but faced him

And with the full force, I used to lift him up

Gave it a spin and threw it away with a thrust.


I used to relish the dream even after I woke up

Filled with the same power and confidence,

I'd a feeling that I was a creature exceptional,

As I was named Anupam, that means incomparable,

Though I never felt the same with other individuals.


I used to be quiet and introvert with suppressed feelings

There wasn't anyone whom I would express my thinking,

So saw a kind of patient friend in books and poetry writing;

I felt myself as a worthless creature for the world around me,

For a long time, I didn't have any dreams or purpose of living.


When I crossed my thirties, I realised that I really was unique

And for that I don't need anyone else's compliment or certificate,

I recalled the dream of the lion and started to see the strength

That was hidden by many failed struggles and their stains,

I could see the angel within me, and realised I was pretty too.


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The Clumsy Girl

So clumsy I had been in my early days,

I didn't know how to tie my curly hair,

Straighten my attire or get the plaits fair,

Even my face used to be dry in every weather,

I didn't know how to apply a cream or powder.


The other hostel girls were filled with flair,

They knew flattery to get the chosen chair,

While I was mused in my own world of despair,

I used to curse myself for my foolish behaviour,

As I couldn't lie a little to be someone popular.


I don't have a delightful memory of those days,

I could just see the mental tortures that I felt

From the ones who were not responsible adults,

They made me feel day in and out, I was an insult,

Though today friends recall me as someone special.



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The Girl Got Famous

So shy girl was once asked to speak a few words,

She couldn't speak a single word on the stage

And became a common topic to be mocked;

She lost more of her morale and confidence,

And planned never to speak in any one's presence,

She confined herself to the words of innocence;


Once she was reciting a poem that was noticed,

And was asked to participate in the recitation,

By God's grace, she could win that competition,

And that incidence made her a new sensation,

She was coined as an 'Emerging Poet of the new generation'

But by then it was the end of the days of formal education.

A Very Interesting Story

My cousin had to get her photograph from a photo studio to send to the eligible bachelors for her with the marriage proposal. I was in my tenth grade at that time and was waiting for my results. By then I had composed about 60 poems, which was compiled by my father and was sent for publication.

My sister was not comfortable with the photographer and was not giving a natural smile but the shrewd one. I was asking her from the background to smile properly by showing it myself. The photographer asked me to come ahead and clicked a picture of mine. This photo in the red dress is clicked at the same time. The same photo was used in the back cover of my poetry book which was named after my mother, 'Mamata'.

After two years, I was there once again to get my photograph clicked as that was to be sent to my husband. In this picture, one can sense, how scared I was while getting my photograph clicked. The smile that I was showing to my sister two years ago was nowhere. It was by the grace of the almighty that my photograph was sent to only one family and that selected me to be the bride. Thus, I was married just after my senior secondary classes.

Also, if one is vigilant, it can be seen that I had plucked the hair off my forehead a few days ago. That's why the girl in the picture looks like an alien. Even my husband said the same. And when I asked why he selected me, jokingly he used to say, "My luck".

Transformation

I've witnessed so many ups and downs in my life but always felt that whatever I am, is enough to have a comfortable life. When I look at the world around me, I feel far safe and better.

I thank god for this body and mind as I have seen many with physical or mental imbalances. I was not dropped in an orphan but had a loving and caring parents, I could get my basic education and further my higher education even after my marriage which is not possible for so many people all around.

I thank the people around me to sympathise or empathise with my feelings, even I am ignored, dejected and neglected, I learn that I am not perfect but still strive to do my best from my end.

I know I am not a beauty queen, but I have learnt to admire myself. I know the worth of self-love. And the moment I started loving myself, I had immense love and respect for everyone around me. There was a time, when I wished to have my picture but couldn't click it either myself or from anyone else. When I tried to find out my pictures from the past, I was disappointed to see, I didn't have any.

Since we got these selfies, I have started to take selfies and find myself in that, improvising in all the ways.

© 2020 Anupam Mitu

Comments

Anupam Mitu (author) from MUMBAI on August 27, 2020:

Thank you dear Riffat. lots of love and blessings.

Anupam Mitu (author) from MUMBAI on August 27, 2020:

Thank you so much Dora. Lots of love and blessings.

Anupam Mitu (author) from MUMBAI on August 27, 2020:

Thank you so much Hari for giving some time to this.

Hari Prasad S from Bangalore on August 10, 2020:

Anupam this post is amazingly beautiful. Loved it. Its inspiring to know that you made it. The story in india for most of us is similar but your story is well documented for all of us to get inspired. Well done.

Dora Weithers from The Caribbean on July 27, 2020:

You have blossomed into a beautiful, confident woman. Your husband is lucky indeed to have you. We are lucky to have access to your poetry.

Riffat Junaid from Pakistan on July 27, 2020:

I can find your struggle in your articles and its very good thing that you did this for yourself.

Anupam Mitu (author) from MUMBAI on July 27, 2020:

Thank you so much Chirangada for such pleasing and heartwarming words.

Lots of love and blessings.

Take care dear.

Anupam Mitu (author) from MUMBAI on July 27, 2020:

Thank you so much dear Urooj.

Lots of love and blessings.

Chitrangada Sharan from New Delhi, India on July 27, 2020:

Impressive indeed. Appreciate your personal story, and the fact that you have the courage to tell your story.

Life is like that—No one can claim, that they never had any adverse moment in their lives. But, very few would like to share the adverse part at a public platform. You have done it because of the confidence you have gained over the years. I believe, that self confidence develops, only if you face challenges in your life and conquer them.

Self love and self belief is important, in order to get respect from others.

Thank you for sharing. Keep up the high spirits. All the best.

Urooj Khan from Karachi, Pakistan on July 27, 2020:

Hard work and struggle always pays off. Such an inspiring story. This hub encourages me a lot.

Anupam Mitu (author) from MUMBAI on July 27, 2020:

Thank you so much dear MG Singh. I have read so many stories of yours in a few days that when I was asleep I dreamt of a story and framed it in words. I would request you to go through that as you are the real inspiration behind that story.

Lots of love and blessings.

Anupam Mitu (author) from MUMBAI on July 27, 2020:

Thank you so much dear Lorna for reading it and leaving such an encouraging compliment.

Inspired from you all I try to improve myself. Just now written a story. Elaborating it in the next comment of Singh sir.

Lots of love and blessings.

MG Singh emge from Singapore on July 27, 2020:

Hope is eternal and thats what keeps a person going. You have had your fair share of tribulations in life and it's good you got over them. That could serve as an example

Lorna Lamon on July 27, 2020:

This is a wonderful and inspiring write Anupam which is a fitting testament to all you have achieved and overcome. It takes courage to face our demons and now you are ready for the next chapter in your life, which I hope will be everything you wish for and deserve my dear friend.

Anupam Mitu (author) from MUMBAI on July 27, 2020:

Thank you so much Flourish dear.

I was given an option, either to pass the preliminary examination for the medical college or get married. I failed and this...

Though I received a lot from my life and feel, that's too much for me to move on.

I love your concern dear.

You are such a positive character.

Lots of love and blessings.

Anupam Mitu (author) from MUMBAI on July 27, 2020:

Thank you Umesh for the blessings. It's a pleasure of mine that you loved this.

Take care.

Anupam Mitu (author) from MUMBAI on July 27, 2020:

Thank you Eric.

God bless you

Lots of love and blessings

Anupam Mitu (author) from MUMBAI on July 27, 2020:

Thank you so much dear Ann.

Lots of love and blessings

Anupam Mitu (author) from MUMBAI on July 27, 2020:

Thank you for this compliment, Miebakagh.

Take care

Anupam Mitu (author) from MUMBAI on July 27, 2020:

Thank you John. Your words really mean a lot to me.

Yes dear friend.

Waiting for our collaborative work to be completed.

FlourishAnyway from USA on July 26, 2020:

Keep believing in yourself. Thank you for sharing about your life and your personality. You have much to be proud about. You are a lovely and accomplished writer who expresses herself well. What were the circumstances of your marriage that you had to send a photo to the family?

Umesh Chandra Bhatt from Kharghar, Navi Mumbai, India on July 26, 2020:

Anupam, you really impressed the readers this time. Keep on your good work. God bless you.

Miebakagh Fiberesima from Port Harcourt, Rivers State, NIGERIA. on July 26, 2020:

Eric, truth is told. Handling the tough situation well has been described here as success. Tough people takes on the storm as if it were a toy. Much thanks.

Eric Dierker from Spring Valley, CA. U.S.A. on July 26, 2020:

Cool. I like hearing of tough times and growing up from people I admire. You give hope by example.

Ann Carr from SW England on July 26, 2020:

You're brave to share all these things with so many people. You have succeeded through hard work and perseverance, even though you felt unworthy from time to time. You are, of course, an attractive and learned woman who has worked hard and now you have your rewards.

Good for you!

Ann

Miebakagh Fiberesima from Port Harcourt, Rivers State, NIGERIA. on July 26, 2020:

Anapum, you were an open person. I like your life style.

John Hansen from Queensland Australia on July 26, 2020:

Anupam, I admire you for sharing your story for us all. That in itself takes a lot of confidence and shows how far you have come. You are a beautiful person and have every right to be proud of yourself and what you have achieved. I am happy to call you a friend.