Where have you been? Why have you evaded me? Why are you so hard to hold onto & at the same time so hard to let go of? Why are you confused with lust, sex, infatuation, obsession, stalking, settling, abuse, co-dependency, & yet you affect every area in life? Why do you run the opposite direction when I crave you so much? Why do I take advantage of you when I have you? Why do I not see you in myself? Why do you seem so hard to see in other people sometimes? Why is it so hard to love others sometimes? Why is it so hard to love myself? Why aren't you in the bars when I go looking? Why aren't you online when I try to find you? Why aren't answering your phone when I call? Why dont you answer the door when I am knocking? Why do ppl throw you away for lust?
I have a lot of questions for you that I am still trying to find the answers too.... I would appreciate if you'd take some time for me cuz I really need you to survive. I know we don't always agree, but that doesn't me I don't want you in my life. Please show me how to respect, love, & treat a woman cuz without you, well let's be honest....I'm terrible at it. Please teach me how to raise my children. Please help me to feel better about myself. Please help me to love & appreciate myself as well as others. Please help me to start over w myself. Please help me to not be envious or boast. Please help me to not "keep score." Please help me to prevent relationships from failing within myself & with others. Thanks for being who you are. Without you I don't know where I would be. You are the strongest force in the universe. You are able to forgive, apologize, start over, teach, & change all in one day! You are resilient. You are truly amazing. You are stronger than violence, murder, fear, lies, stealing, etc.
I've been waiting my whole life for you. I get upset with you & depressed over you.
You are the solution to so many things. I have to be honest with you, I don't know if I should waste my time on you or not. I hear people singing about you all the time. I see people on tv trying to portray you. I see people saying they "know" you that are actually taking advantage of you. Do you even exist anymore? When I have you, it's like the highest of highs, but when I lose you, it's like the lowest of lows. Please just come back to me. Because of you, you make me who I am today. Thank you.
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