Mote Anita Ojei is a creative writer, highly talented and professional. She is a graduate in English and also a media personnel.
The first day I set my eyes on you
You were young, innocent and cool
And I was a broken man, filled with deceit
So discrete and incomplete
But I wanted to make you my wife
Because I loved you and needed you in my life
And when we got married, I tried to be the best
the best man you couldn't detest
I tried to be responsible enough
But as time went by, it became a bluff
I never stopped loving you
I never stopped caring too
But I missed the chase, i miss the girls
Just for fun and for my lustful pleasure yearns
And like you preach sometimes
You cannot serve God and mammon
True, because that was the beginning of our issues
Most pain we go through in life is the result of what we choose.
Judy, our marriage became more of quarrels than affection
And sometimes I hear you pray to God for direction
Direction to where? I would yell
If you want to leave, you can go to hell
And you would cry yourself to sleep
While i play with my phone hoping it lures me to sleep.
Judy I know you knew I wasn't faithful
How painful it is and shameful
I was assured you wouldn't dare be unfaithful
You were a church girl and it is against the Bible.
I was Foolish I know
Foolish i hurt you so
Foolish I let the devil into our home
Foolish I let him take control.
And the day I hit you hard
You broke down in tears calling me a retard
You threatened to leave me
And all I did was laugh
I noticed you were unhappy in our home
And sometimes the thought of it made me feel sad and alone
Wondering the kind of husband I'd become.
Coming home one day, I was welcomed by a sudden Emptiness
Your luggage was gone, so were you
I was speechless for a moment but fretting was pointless
For i knew you would come back to your boo
But days turned into weeks, weeks into months
And my Judy, you weren't back to me
I wanted to call your folks at once
But fear prevented me
I couldn't reach you at all
So I tried getting to your best friend
But she never returned my calls
Then I realised it was the end.
I suddenly came down from my high horse
Pondering and pondering why this ever happened to us
I thought of the girls that got me wasted
How I hurt my wife and all that's wasted
I regretted everything as I thought of us
But sadly you sent a paper to sign for our divorce
Now I heard you found someone new
How did this happen so fast?
Does he make you laugh like i do
Have you really made me your past?
Does he kiss you affectionately with eyes closed
Did he throw a surprised party when he proposed
I heard he's rich and a responsible man
I know he will give you what I never had
But please Judy don't marry him
Come back to me, I'm a changed man
Without you, am a broken sad man
I am begging you at whim
Dear Judy, good people are hard to find
And i regret ever letting you go