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Dear Best Friend: An Apology

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What doesn't kill us can either break us or make us stronger. We can choose to become stronger. Choose to be better. Choose to not crumble.

Dear Best Friend,

The chilly breeze outside just made me think of you.

I can only imagine how numb and frozen your heart is right now.

I miss you. The only one that understood me, that listened, that helped.

I am sorry. For not being there when you needed me the most.

When he attacked you and tore down your self-esteem.

When he bullied and disrespected you.

When he destroyed that heart, the one we worked so hard to mend; the heart we brought back to life.

I am sorry. I should have been there.

I should have been there to stop him from trying to change you.

I should have stopped him from forcing you to do things you did not want to do.

I should have been there to stop him from making you resent yourself.

I should have been there…

I need you to know that, I need you.

You are not a replaceable person in my life, neither are you unimportant.

You are a blessing. A treasure.

The whole damn chest and you deserve to know that.

I hate him. For making you feel less than you are.

For taking advantage of your kindness and selflessness.

For blurring the lines between your selflessness and the selfishness of others.

For placing a burden on you while claiming to love you.

I cherish you because you are not perfect but your imperfections make you…you.

He didn’t see that but that’s because he was not right for you.

Who you are is a beautiful soul, one that is selfless and caring.

A person whose idea of a good time is having a Disney movie marathon.

A person who loves easily and wholeheartedly.

Who you are is who I would love for you to always be.

You are not flawless but you are perfect the way you are.

It gets better. Everyone says that, but does it really?

I think you just learn to live with the pain and eventually it stops hurting so much.

Guess what honey? You are strong enough to do it.

To bear the pain until it fades.

I'm proud of you. For trying to overcome this situation.

For being bold in the face of hardship.

For being you.

I know you fear the world right now but I hope soon you realize that the world needs to fear you not the other way around.

Fear you for all you have to offer.

Your warmth.

Your originality.

Your bright personality.

I love you.

I love you for free.

Always and forever.

© 2020 Yvonne

Comments

Uju on November 18, 2020:

This is a beautiful ♥️

Tiyasha Maitra from Gurgaon on November 18, 2020:

A very heartwarming poem. May all best friends have such love and connection. Well written.

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on November 17, 2020:

This is a very touching heartfelt poem.

Many people seem to bow out of their friends lives when they become involved in a relationship.

I guess we believe we are doing what is best.

There are those relationships that suck the life right of a person...leaving them lost in despair.

Reach out as a friend with love. No discriminating words. Just kindness.

I can feel the sadness as well as the love inside this one.

manatita44 from london on November 17, 2020:

Poems like these require hugs and ...silence. I do not wish to taint what is an offering borne out of pain, courage, sacrifice and sadness.

My empathy and commendation for a heart of resilience and fortitude in the face of adversity. I can only extend my souls light ... the Hearts warmth and may God's Love and compassion, be with the victim, with all parties concerned. Endless light and healing energies to all concerned.