Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.
Thought I was on the road to smooth sailing
After going through some choppy waters in recent months
Believed that the worst could be in the rearview mirror
Didn't prepare for what was going to happen next
Was given unexpectedly shocking news last night
Have been sucker punched by an unexpected twist
That the television synopsis didn't divulge to help
Soften the impact of such heavy handed information
Still finding it hard to wrap my head around it
Okay, the news could have been worse
Just wished that it could have been a lot better
And timing of it wasn't at such a tenuous moment of the program
Revealed that my body found a different way to betray me
Disappointed that the internal timeline blew up in smoke
Always dreamt of the pattering of little feet jumping on the bed
Way too early in the morning for human functioning
Reality of that dream might never truly happen at this juncture
Know that there is a large support system out there
To keep hope and my optimistic spirit going
Terrified about what comes next
Wondered if the recent turn of events changed things
Took away from the main facets of my feminine mystique
Was I still a woman if I could lose a certain part of my body?
Should I be more concerned about my health over anything else?
Answer was obvious to the brain; not the emotional center
My heart struggling over two important possibilities
Trying to put one foot in front of the other at this point
Only thing that can be done right now; until the next step
When facts determined and options laid out on the table
Keeping fingers crossed that the best path helped
To keep dreams and health relatively intact
Not sure if that's going to happen. but a girl can dream.
manatita44 from london on January 23, 2021:
Embrace with Love and yes, Love also guides you, so where you are conscious of it, let it be the Path to take as best you can. Keep dreaming! Peace!