Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.

Thought I was on the road to smooth sailing

After going through some choppy waters in recent months

Believed that the worst could be in the rearview mirror

Didn't prepare for what was going to happen next

Was given unexpectedly shocking news last night

Have been sucker punched by an unexpected twist

That the television synopsis didn't divulge to help

Soften the impact of such heavy handed information

Still finding it hard to wrap my head around it

Okay, the news could have been worse

Just wished that it could have been a lot better

And timing of it wasn't at such a tenuous moment of the program

Revealed that my body found a different way to betray me

Disappointed that the internal timeline blew up in smoke

Always dreamt of the pattering of little feet jumping on the bed

Way too early in the morning for human functioning

Reality of that dream might never truly happen at this juncture

Know that there is a large support system out there

To keep hope and my optimistic spirit going

Terrified about what comes next

Wondered if the recent turn of events changed things

Took away from the main facets of my feminine mystique

Was I still a woman if I could lose a certain part of my body?

Should I be more concerned about my health over anything else?

Answer was obvious to the brain; not the emotional center

My heart struggling over two important possibilities

Trying to put one foot in front of the other at this point

Only thing that can be done right now; until the next step

When facts determined and options laid out on the table

Keeping fingers crossed that the best path helped

To keep dreams and health relatively intact

Not sure if that's going to happen. but a girl can dream.

Comments

manatita44 from london on January 23, 2021:

Embrace with Love and yes, Love also guides you, so where you are conscious of it, let it be the Path to take as best you can. Keep dreaming! Peace!