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DEAR FAIRY PARENTS

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Dear fairy parents...
.... Have been talking to you, and I know you've been listening although some people think am on some weird ' pass way to crazy town '
And am writing because the thought of being in an asylum is scaring me to death... Even people that I thought understood me think am disturb or something....
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.......... Have been out of words except when am talking to you guys, everything I touch just turns out messed up, everyone I meet just walks away after a while. Even I wanna be someone else for a while, so I cut my hair, did one or two piercings and went back to my old coffee habits...
.. The person I am is a bit happy, because am not really hurting nobody ( unless am not aware of it) . But a bit sad too...
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Lately I feel like a bit of me misses the old me, not that I wanna go back to being the crazy loner, but I wanna feel again. Right now am just a bit of that and a bit of that. I dont know what to feel or if I even feel...
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I don't know when I happened to be like this... I Don't know if you disappointed at me ( am guessing you are) .. I would be disappointed too I guess...
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I know I can't get a fresh start,
I know I can't switch planets or something!
Or maybe be someone new, just maybe....
In fact, I do t even know what to wish for...
I really don't.... Am too broken to even think straight ...
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"Fix me " sounds about right I think.
Or " mend me " because I could seriously use that.
.. Or " HELP ME!! " maybe you'll know what to do with me!
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I just don't wanna be the same tomorrow...
...... But I still want to be me, just not the me that scares everyone away....
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.. I wanna be normal at least...
All I ask is fix me and mend me and help me because I really need you around right now...
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Dear fairy parents wave those wands I ask.

© 2020 Amani Utembu

Comments

Amani Utembu (author) from Nairobi -Kenya on January 11, 2020:

Thank you Brenda. I always look forward to your comments ... More writing is on the way.

BRENDA ARLEDGE from Washington Court House on January 10, 2020:

Amani,

This is so sad. I am sure the pixie fairies are waving their wands.

Anything is possible.

Keep writing. It will show you more than anything.

A glimpse of your inner soul will shine thru...that's what us writers do...bleed onto paper.

I look forward to seeing more of your writing soon.

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