Confusing Emotions
Loving you has come naturally,
losing you will tear me apart.
Not knowing what the future
holds has me mesmerized.
Tossing aside all thought
of anything that has happened.
Knowing that none of it
can be changed or redone.
I have found what I want
but of course it’s impossible
to have because of where
things stand right now.
Looking into the eternal
glass I know that I am
not alone in any of this.
Sure you are not here
and never can be
but I know what that I
am not alone thanks
to how you treat me.
Torturing myself with the
same thoughts, things I
cannot seem to get out
of my head at all.
Losing myself in the pain
and emotions that I
have tried to keep buried
deep within myself.
Emotions that I should
not feel or even think
about because of how
things are right now.
Emotions that have to
stay buried because I
am too vulnerable to
fix them right now.
Things that I should
not be feeling no
matter how much sense
it may make to me.
© 2020 Emily