Closing the Book: Choosing to Write a New Chapter
Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.
Opened a new type of book and began an unexpected journey
Thought it wasn't possible to allow someone in completely
Always found it difficult to trust someone to the fullest extent
Been burned in the past by unworthy people who didn't understand
Never fully embraced a unique partner that colored outside the lines
Tried to force me into a narrow stereotypical box with no windows
Light impossible to come into the picture without smashing it
Often meant breaking a partnership agreement by accident
One that was entered in good faith, but not honored by other party
Eyes opened now due to the experience of reading the fine print
Before putting any pens to paper for better or worse
Came to conclusion that it was secretly known subconsciously
That this partnership would fail for various uncontrollable circumstances
Cynical about love and beauty fading into the foreground
Never staying longer than a fortnight before reality came crashing down
Sounded cynically bitter in a way; still believed in love everlasting
Unsure if it's in the cards for me directly though
Still hard to trust the opposite sex at the moment for fear of getting hurt
Don't know if it's worth the effort yet to invest in shaky stocks and bonds
Huge turnaround from the beginning of year where it started off
With a sense of possibility and a strong midnight kiss to seal the deal
Ideally not perfect fit but thought it could still work if both were committed
Just needed some extra tender love and care to smooth things out
Fix the rough edges and imperfections to make it more manageable
Realized that it was a mistake to fit a square into a hole meant for a round peg
Ignored all the signs that this fairy tale was one sided
A byproduct of an overactive imagination designed by Hollywood
And a large helping of generic and disposable romantic comedies
Where everyone walked off into the sunset full of rainbows and unicorns
Instead of hitting the metaphorical, and sometimes real, brick wall
Not sure how it was possible to end up in such a precarious life position
Forced by circumstances beyond control; pushed into decisions unready to make
Cards have been dealt and deck was stacked by letting the house win
Unfair advantage and realized I was just a fish in an endless pond
Plenty of opportunities to come along and make swimming around fun again
Need to get back in fighting shape before it can be done though
Thankfully, summer is not for another six months.