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Climbing Out of the Pit

Heather has a Bachelor's Degree in English from Moravian College and has been freelance writing for more than 12 years.

Here we once again; stuck at the bottom

Looking for a way out of this mess not my own making

Timing, circumstance and genetics had part in this

Wondered if meant to draw short end of a few sticks

Unlucky in having all of the ducks lined up perfectly

While others seemed to land theirs on a neat whim

Embarrassed to be at a loss and out of sorts more frequently

Spooked that the white picket fence fantasy existed for me

Time whizzed by in a blink of an eye and still not there

Never believed in following a conventional path

Wished that a clearer path would formulate

At this point of the juncture or twisted narrative

Fed up with kissing frogs and waiting rooms

White lab coats and staring at bleached out dotted ceilings

Often wondered what true sunshine felt like again

After numerous months locked in complete darkness

Of the metaphorical and literal persuasions

Scared of getting burned out by such brightness

Intensity after being locked away for so long

No longer trusting of those around the bend

Strangers seemed like semi-hostile beings

Ready to attack on will if looked at the wrong way

Unwilling to trust sometimes even few allowed in

Been exposed too much to differing elements

Cannot take any more bad faith investments

Too emotionally and physically taxing to sift through

What was worth the effort and the last shred of patience

Determining value of someone's nature monumental task

Especially when coated in shiny veneers to cover rough spots

Pockmarks and severely noticeable scars showcased imperfections

No longer looking for perfect illusion; hasn't done anyone any favors

In need of more of the realistic nature of a partnership

Grounded in realism and not for appeasement

Only one person benefited from the latter option: the receiver

Gave them a false sense of security and grounded your contributions

Individuality that made you stand out in the crowd

Not too eager at looking for someone or something to complement anything

Just trying to get through the latest patch of metaphorical fog

Getting through to the other side before landing on what was next

Baby steps only way to staying sane in this madness.

Looking to get through to the other side of this.

Looking to get through to the other side of this.

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