Chaotic Wanderings of a College Student
When i was younger I grew up wanting no pain for my friends
But instead to bear it all on my shoulders till the very end
And now that I’m older it seems to come true
Except my friends are still sad so what else is there left to do
I got too comfortable feeling so stable
So now without that i fear i’m inable
To cope with my life with no medicine to take
I dissociate, distract, to focus on what i’ve got to make
I never said that I wanted to die
And even now at the worst im not thinking suicide
I’m thinking of life and what is left to now come
Have i gone through the worst with no blood to which i’ve clung?
I do feel not fear but intense dread of what’s near
As it draws closer with no one holding me dear
Full of worries and terrors my heart can’t decide
Should i stay here and feel it or live my next life
© 2022 Melanie Wynne