Change Me Now

Updated on March 13, 2019
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I am a writer and a poet. A soul searcher and a realist. A communicator and home decorator.

Change me now

I cannot do this,
But I need to,
It is soo hard
You just cannot understand,
I am a stone,
How can I be wet in my own tears?
There is something in my heart,
It has been there for years,
How did it get there?
I kept it hidden for decades,
I thought it should have died,
So why is it still there?
What is happening to me?
I pray no one sees this.

I need love,
I am not burning inside;
I am dying:
I wish I can live,
It is you right?
That same tiny eyes,
That same cold lips,
That same flat nose that cannot smell
How I feel.
Do you even know my name
I need to kiss you,
I need to hold you,
I want to be in you,
I want to sweat in your arms,
I want you to have my bites,
I want my nails to draw you tattoos,
So you know its you.

I do not know how it started,
I just wanted a muse;
Then you became that man,
I wanted some cash;
But you have become that man
I want to love.
I want to give you what I never gave anyone,
I want to love you deep,
It is my decision,
I want to serve you that certificate,
Look -
I want to change for you,
I need to change for you,
I want change baby
I am now change.

The cold sea is holding you from me,
I read a poem for you
But you never listened to it,
I published it and told the world its nothing:
I wrote it for money
And you believed;
How can a man be that daft.
I placed my face on the book cover,
But you didn’t feel hurt,
You allowed worlds to be between us,
Am I the only one feeling this beat?
In the end you are just a sea guy
And I a poet
Love does not matter
Let us just make money,
I will always be me -
Love you.

© 2019 Jade George Anibor


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    • Jade Anibor profile imageAUTHOR

      Jade George Anibor 

      16 months ago from Nigeria, Lagos Lekki Ajah.

      Deep poem!


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