Caught On A Memory

Not An Easy Step

We live our lives

Accepting our faults and moving ahead

There are so many emotions connected to our decisions

Prior to, during and after

It doesn't make it any easier or more comfortable

Finding my way

Sorting from the inside of my head

The things don't make sense

Wondering how to

Where to

Put the things that I have collected over the years

They have no real cash value

Sentimental yes

Part of my past

Now this time is different

Not always better

Many of my family and friends are no longer here

These items connect me to a different state of mind

To a moment I can't put my finger on

Loved just the same

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shanmarie 4 months ago from Texas

This is lovely. I used to feel like that about many things I kept, especially those things that others gave me. But I lost it all. Just like that. Some I had to leave behind. Much of it was stolen by people in search of even though they had no monetary value of any significance. And the rest burned to pretty much nothing but ashes. I know what a burnt bowling ball looks like. Pitiful. My grandma gave it to me after she quit bowling. She had many bowling trophies, so she was good. This one had a cat on it. But it became a big black rock. A wooden rocking chair, a parrot, and a fork someone handmade for me when I was a child. . .so many things. They were loved just the same. And always will be. I have learned that the sentiments stay in my heart. I've learned how to let go of material things. They come and go. Cherish the items while you have them, but the memories will always remain no matter I what.

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DREAM ON 4 months ago Author

Shanmarie I recently lost photos and some things I had for years. I know I wouldn't look at the things often but when I did I felt comfort. I am sad but on a scale from one to ten I am a five. Ten being the worst. I know it's not more important than the people I meet every day on the Hubpages that bring me more joy than any object ever could. Your comment touched my heart and gives me more understanding when dealing with my uneasiness. Thank you for reading and commenting. Have a wonderful sleep.

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shanmarie 4 months ago from Texas

I'm sorry to hear that. It's always sad to lose things like that. It still is. I don't even have momentos from when my children were toddlers anymore.

Recently, I had another lesson on those things. Sometimes it is necessary to part with them. I never understood why people wouldn't keep precious memories from others when a friendship or romance ended. I do now. As you say, they may not be looked at often, but they still arouse powerful feelings. Sometimes when one still cares for another, those things are just reminders that those feelings no longer matter to the other. Photos, emails, letters, other keepsakes. . .They all affect us just the same if they are tied to special memories.

It's also why people whose primary love language is gifts always feel an extra surge of affection when they are given gifts or thinking about gifts which they still have.

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DREAM ON 4 months ago Author

Shanmarie It's a working progress. When I am busy I am fine. It's when a thought crosses my mind I can't seem to get it out of my head. I try to investigate my feelings and sometimes they are too deep for me to handle. I always have more good days than bad. Sometimes I push myself in work and at home to enrich my life in a direction I can only learn by doing. Thank you for reading and sharing.

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shanmarie 4 months ago from Texas

Good to know. These days I have more good than bad days too. I have a general positive outlook on life. But I also acknowledge that I am I.lyric human and I feel a wide range of emotion. Thankfully, anger rarely experienced. Though I think sometimes I'd be better off with a but more of it. Other times, I am glad I am me just as I am. Anyway, nothing wrong with deep feelings.

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DREAM ON 4 months ago Author

Shanmarie I take any frustrations I have and try to turn them into energy. Trying to be productive and creative in writing and then take those writings to roll into my plans. When you have ideas and other people don't see the same vision you have a few choices. Find people who share your vision. Do it yourself which takes up all your time and energy. Give up and that is not an option. I continue to reach outside my circle of friends and coworkers to find the right connection. My past drove me this far. Now my present has to be better to take me farther. Thank you for your help and your support. Have a safe and happy Memorial Day weekend.

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shanmarie 4 months ago from Texas

I can relate to using writing to alleviate frustration. And to also help with future visions. Few things I've ever totally given up on. I always still see the hope and vision. Some th I mgs have to go on hold occasionally due to other immediate priorities, though, that get in the way.

You have a great weekend too!

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DREAM ON 4 months ago Author

Shanmarie To excel in one area you have to keep pushing on where other people stop. I am not sure how to juggle everything to accomplish my goals. Thank you so much for sharing and caring.

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Gypsy Rose Lee 4 months ago from Riga, Latvia

It's always great to have memories that bring back the old times. Sorry you lost some of your precious photos. To keep the others safe I suggest doing what I did. I took quite a few photos and scanned them on my PC and I'll tell you seeing those faces on the PC is even better than leafing through old photo albums. There are some of little me that make me smile all the while when I see them on the screen.

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DREAM ON 4 months ago Author

Gypsy Rose Lee I thought I would do the same thing. I put lots of pictures on a laptop and a year later our computer crashed. We tried to get the information back by doing a factory reset. It wiped out all pictures we had. Now my wife uses the cloud called one drive it's free and it's easy access and if something happens with the computer the pictures aren't affected. Thank you for reading and sharing.

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